Broken arrows

48.

"Baby, I asked you to marry me a long time ago and you told me to ask you again, so here we are" he said as he grabbed a little box out of his pocket.

I knew what was coming but I still had tears in my eyes. He was everything I wanted but I had to tell him.

I had to.

"You're the most beautiful girl in the world and I still can't believe you picked me. I know I made stupid mistakes and I can't thank you enough for saving me"

He opened the box and showed a beautiful ring. A different ring than the one I've had before.

"I wanna spend my life with you, with both of you" he smiled a little. "Will you marry me?"

I looked down at him. He wanted to spend his life with me and the little one.
I put my hands on my stomach and smiled.

"There's nothing I want more. Of course I want to marry you" I smiled but I couldn't beat his smile. He put the ring around my finger and cupped my cheeks to kiss me.

We kissed for so long but it still didn't feel long enough. I could kiss him all day.

"So, now that that's settled, let's eat" Lando laughed as he sat down and patted his legs.
I knew what he meant, it was an invitation to sit on his lap and how could I say no to that?

I sat down on his lap, his arms were wrapped around my body as he reached for a slice of pizza.
He quickly took a bite out of it before wobbling it in front of my mouth.

"You want a bite? Open up" I chuckled as I opened my mouth. I was fully expecting him to throw the pizza in my face or something but he didn't.

He actually put the slice of pizza slowly in my mouth and kissed my cheek a couple of times, it gave me time to snatch the pizza out of his hand.

I smiled as I ate the pizza, it felt as if I won even though I didn't know what kind of battle.

"I love you so much" he said as his thumb brushed against my mouth, probably brushing away a few crumbs.

I couldn't say it back, not until I came clean, not until I expressed why I was so worried lately.

I had to do it and I had to do it now.

"I have to tell you something" I almost whispered. "Okay" he nodded softly. I turned around on his lap, so I was facing him.

"When you were dating Lara, I was pretty fucked up. I wasn't myself" I started. I had to explain this first, maybe he would understand why I did what I did.

Maybe maybe maybe.

"I am sorry" he whispered and put his hand on my cheek. I looked in his eyes, maybe a little bit too long.

C'mon Aimée spit it out, tell him. Just tell him.

"And during that horrible time, I had sex with Verstappen" I said it so quickly I almost stumbled over my words.

He looked at me, his expression was blank. I couldn't tell if he was mad, sad, disappointed?

He looked at me as if he was waiting for me to speak up again, but I had nothing else to say.
There was nothing else I could say to make this better.