Broken arrows

50.

Mexico, I absolutely loved being here. Kara and Josh also flew with us. I was so happy to spend some time with them but unfortunately I was feeling sick, very sick.

I was feeling nauseous, had a terrible headache and couldn't get out of bed.

"How are you feeling baby?" Lando asked as he kneeled down next to the bed. "I am alive" I muttered.

It was something we told each other when we were in pain, a lot of pain. We tried to find the positive things in bad situations.

He put his hand against my forehead. "You've a fever" his hand brushed down to my cheek. "I am gonna send a doctor okay?"

I nodded. It was probably nothing but we both wanted to be sure since this wasn't gonna be an easy pregnancy.

He got up but I quickly grabbed his arm. "You wanna do the test?" I was counting the days until I was far along to do this test.
I wanted to know it as soon as possible. I didn't want to drag this out.

He nodded. "Let me know what you need from me, okay?" He kissed my forehead.

I was so grateful for him. He's been the best boyfriend lately.
I prayed every day that this baby was his. It had to be his.

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I stayed in bed for almost the entirety of the weekend.
It was Sunday right now and I finally felt a little better. I was also way too bored to stay in this room so I got ready and dragged myself to the paddock.

Lando was obviously already here, he had to prepare for the race.

Christian gave me the weekend off, so I didn't need to work.

I walked up to the Ferrari hospitality where Kara and Josh were sitting outside. "Oh fuck, we have a problem" Josh sighed as he shook his head.

"What? What's the problem?" I frowned as I sat down with them.

"So you are dating Lando and Kara is dating Charles" he pointed at the both of us. Kara and I both nodded, I guess she was as confused as I was.

"Yeah?" Kara and I said at the same time.

"In which garage are we gonna watch the race?" He threw his hands in the air as dramatically as he could. "Decisions, decisions..." he shook his head laughing.

We all started laughing. It's funny how our lives changed so much.

We used to struggle to even buy food and now we were debating where we would watch the race.

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We decided on the Ferrari garage for this weekend. We would watch the race in the Mclaren garage next weekend, because it would be Lando's birthday.

Lando and Charles both did amazing. They both ended on the podium.
Maybe we weren't their lucky charms, maybe Josh was.

Lando and I both went to our hotelroom together after the race.
We were both ready to crawl in bed and sleep.

I walked in and felt a piece of paper under my foot.

There was a envelope laying on the floor of our hotel room. That wasn't here when I left.

I grabbed it off the floor and looked at it. My heart started racing as I looked from who it was.
The doctor, it were the test results.

"What do you have there?" Lando asked and walked up to me. He put his arm around my waist and pulled me closer.

I showed him the envelope. "The results" I looked in his eyes.
My hands were trembling. His eyes moved from the envelope back to my eyes.

I wish they didn't come so soon, I wanted to know but I also knew things were about to change if Lando wasn't the dad.

He was being mature about it now, but his heart was gonna break if he wasn't.
My heart would break too.

"I-I can't. You have to read it" I said as I gave him the envelope.

He looked at me one more time before opening the envelope.
His eyes scanned over the letter and I swear, this moment was going in slowmotion.

Please, let him be the dad.