He bit his lips as he looked at me uneasily. I waited for his response but he remained looking at me, obviously anxious of my sudden question.
"Just tell me--"
"Does your head still hurt?" Putol niya sa sasabihin ko.
Kaagad akong umiling. My head didn't hurt when I remembered her the last time. Or even the following nights that I dreamed of her.
"Then what's your dream all about?" He asked me this time curiously yet he remained so nervous. Tila takot na marinig ang mga sagot ko.
"We...we were intimate. And that I baked for her. Gaston…" I leaned towards him. "I don't bake. I don't remember learning baking."
Napaawang ang mga labi niya sa akin. "You...learned to bake, Gunner. I remember it so well, you told me about it...and I saw you do it all."
I already knew this part but hearing it from him, who witnessed all of it, still feels so different.
I breathed in deeply. So, I really did bake. I learned it. Mas lalong sumikip ang nararamdaman ko. My insides trembled and I could feel goosebumps all over my body.
Muli siyang napamunok ng malalim, habang natulala pa rin ako sa kompirmaysion niya.
"What else?" Muli niyamg tanong.
Kaagad na pumasok sa isipan ko ang pangyayari sa coffee shop. "I don't know why but...we were in front of a coffee shop that night. I was with her as we waited for her ride."
"Can you remember her face? Name?" He asked urgently.
Kaagad akong umiling. "None. But she has long wavy hair." That's the only thing I could remember from her, physically.
"So tell me, did you know her?" I asked eagerly yet nervously.
Akala ko sasagutin na niya ako pero nanatili ang nananantiya niyang tingin sa akin. I could feel my patience running out with him just staring at me.
Why can't he just answer me, huh?
"Sevie...Sevie is her name." He answered me smally and breathily.
Napababa siya ng tingin pero muli rin itong umangat papunta sa akin. "She was your girlfriend."
Mg mouth hung open with his revelation. I could feel my muscles tightening making my whole body stiff as a rock. What did he just say? I had a girlfriend? I was in a relationship? Then there is no way I'll forget about her.
I clenched my jaw hard as I processed his words. 'Cause there is no way I had my first girlfriend and forget about her! I'm sure that it was a serious relationship!
But wait...was? Then does it mean…
"You two have already broken up." That was fast.
I swallowed hard trying to find my voice. A part of me was slowly crumbling down as I heard another confirmation from him. There is no way. It just felt so unacceptable.
"Why...why did we break up?" I felt a piercing pain in my chest as I asked him that question. It just felt so unreal...and not very fitting.
He clenched his jaw as he avoided my gaze. "I don't know...you just came to me one afternoon and then you two broke up."
Tuluyan ko ulit nasandal ang likod ko sa sofa niya. We broke up...and that's just it. For some reason I find it hard to accept. Ramdam ko ang pagtutol ng kalooban ko sa sagot niya.
"Then why didn't you tell me anything about it?" I asked, whispering each word.
I heard him heavily as I stared at his ceiling. "I already knew about it before you went to the U.S."
