Into your arms

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Emilias Pov

After almost two weeks, I finally get to go home. Leah visited me every day and helped me through everything but right now I just want to be home with her. I want to express my love. I feel like I'm a complete sucker for her. I have never been so in love before. I need her around me. I know she will care for me but I enjoy it. I have been missing this care for so long and now I finally have someone who helps me with what I'm going through.

Leah picked me up with a car that she rented since I broke hers. I'm still in a bit of pain but it's not as bad as it used to be. As we arrive at Leah's house, she helps me out of the car.

"I'll make you whatever you want. You have been eating this hospital food for two weeks." She says at me as she takes my hand and leads me up the stairs to the door. I give her a smile. I really miss good food and I know how good Leah's food is. She unlocks the door and as soon as I smell the scent of her house, I feel home. It's warm and cosy in here compared to the winter days outside.

"What do you want to eat? I'll make you anything." Leah asks.

"Just do whatever the ingredients give off." I say. I don't want to make her go shopping or anything. I need her here.

"Just tell me what you want." Leah says again.

"Can you make that soup that you made after I came here?" I ask. I like to think about that. Just the thought of that soup makes me feel good.

"You've been in a hospital for two weeks and can now have anything that you want and you choose a soup?" Leah chuckles.

"I like that soup." I say.

"Alright. I'll make it for you." She says.

Leah starts to cook in the kitchen while I sit on the couch and watch her. I follow every movement that she does. It's like watching my favourite movie. I feel how I smile while I watch her.

"Thank you, Leah." I suddenly feel the need to say that.

"You don't have to thank me for the soup."

"Not just the soup. Everything that you have done for me in the last two weeks. You made everything a lot more enjoyable with just being there for me." I say.

"You can always rely on me. I will always be there for you." Leah says at me. I like how she says that and I know it's true.

Once Leah is done cooking, she comes over at me and hands me a bowl of soup. I give her a smile. The smell takes me back to her caring for me as I came here. Leah sits next to me and watches how I eat the first spoon.

"It tastes amazing." I say as I feel like that is all she waited for to hear. I hear a satisfied chuckle from her after I said that. Leah wraps her arm around me and I slightly lean into her chest while I continue to eat. It's such a cosy and comfortable feeling that I get from her arm around me. I missed this feeling in the last weeks. I feel so happy just being in Leah's arms and eating food that she made for me. A few months ago I didn't think I would ever experience something like this. Leah turns her head to the side and bit and I feel her placing a small kiss to the side of my head. This kiss makes me feel even better. My heart feels like it's racing but I feel that it's actually beating slow.

"I have a problem." I say. I feel like it's time to tell her about my parents because that is the only thing that keeps me from fully accepting the situation. I never told Leah before.

"What?"

"You know how you never met my parents and I told you that we don't have contact." I say. That was always what I told Leah. I didn't want her to know the real reason but now I think she needs to know.

"Yeah."

"That wasn't fully true. It's true that I don't have a good relationship with my parents and all that but the real reason why I didn't want you to meet them is that they are homophobic. I didn't want you to be confronted with what they would say when they found out about your sexuality." I confess. Leah stays silent for a moment.

"I can deal with that." She says. That's sad. I don't want her to deal with it.

"I don't want you to. I won't stand there and watch how my parents insult you." I say.

"I don't have to meet your parents if you don't want me to." Leah says. She is always so sweet.

"I'm scared of telling them about me. I didn't want to believe my feelings for you because I knew how my parents would react if I tell them I'm gay." I look up at Leah. I need to look into her eyes for a moment.

"I just want you to know that whatever you choose to do, I will be with you and support you." Leah says.

"I don't want to hide how I feel but I also don't want to hear their comments." I sigh. It's hard and I wish it wasn't like this. I wish they would just accept me. They don't even know what Mark did to me. They met him once but that was when he was still acting like this perfect guy so they have no idea what he put me through and the also have no idea how much Leah has done for me.

"Do you care about their opinion?" Leah asks.

"I wish I wouldn't but deep down I think I do. I never thought I could love a woman but here I am in your arms and there is absolutely no place where I would rather be right now. I love that I accepted that feeling but I wish that my parents would too. I wish they would know how good you are to me. I want them to like you. I want them to be happy for me." I say.

"Maybe they just have to see to understand." Leah says and kisses my head again. I hope she is right. I don't want to hide my relationship or my feelings.

After I finished the soup, I go and take a shower. It feels good to shower here and not in the hospital. I'm actually pretty tired because I couldn't sleep very well in the hospital. I go out of the bathroom with just a towel around my body to go to the bedroom and grab some clothes for the night. As I open the closet to choose something, I see an Arsenal shirt from Leah. I think this would be far better than any other shirt of mine. I take the shirt out of the closet. It has her name on it and smells like her. Without even thinking about it, I put it on. I also put on some shorts and then go straight to bed. More like Leah's bed. I didn't even think about going into my room. I lay on one side of the bed and wait for Leah. I close my eyes and feel how tired I am. I'm happy to be here and not in my bed because this feels exactly like the place I was meant to be in.

As I hear Leah coming in, I quickly close my eyes and act like I'm sleeping already. I think Leah took a quick look at me and then left the room again. I hope she comes back. A bit later I hear the shower running so she probably just went to take a shower.

Then she comes back in. I still keep laying still with my eyes closed. Leah slowly walks through the room and goes into bed next to me. I hope she will still cuddle me. I want her to cuddle me. I feel her hand touching my hair and gently stroking it. It feels so good whenever she does that. She is close behind me and I feel her chest leaning over me a bit. Normally I would be scared of a situation like this but with Leah it makes me feel comfortable. She lowers her head more and then gently kisses my cheek. I have to be careful not to smile at that.

"I love you. I love you so much." She gives me another kiss. "I want you to be my girlfriend but I will give you all the time you need. I can wait for you. I waited for you for years." She whispers. She is so damn sweet. I want her to be my girlfriend as well. She is literally everything that I ever wanted. She is perfect. I feel how Leah places a last kiss to my cheek and then lays next to me. She doesn't take me into her arms like I wanted her. She is probably insecure about touching me when I'm asleep. I can't sleep like this but I don't want her to know that I heard what she said. I wait for a bit and hope that she will change her position but she doesn't. She is laying behind me but isn't touching me. She also left some space between us so our bodies are not touching. I just decide to do it myself. I act like I'm still sleeping and roll over so I'm facing her. I keep my eyes closed and try to get closer to Leah. I wrap my arm around her waist and cuddle my head into her chest. I hear a sweet sigh coming from her as she rests her chin against my head. Now I can actually fall asleep. I have her scent in my nose and finally feel like I'm home. This should be my home. It's probably not what I expected when I came here but I would love to move in forever. Only if Leah wants that as well of course.