Deception

ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ xɪɪɪ - ʀᴇᴀʟɪꜱᴀᴛɪᴏɴꜱ & ᴄᴏɴꜰʀᴏɴᴛᴀᴛɪᴏɴꜱ

I placed my hand on his chest as he continued kissing me. His blonde hair was tickling my forehead and I only wanted to be closer to him.

Am I really in love with Malfoy?

He was running his fingers through my hair and it felt so nice, I never wanted him to stop.

I honestly don't know what's happening.. am I in love with him?.. The guy I used to hate, despise, loathe and scorn? And now.. is this love? What is this?

He was now kissing my neck and travelled his mouth along my jaw and earlobe as he knew how that made me feel.

Suddenly a dreadful feeling came over me.

"S-Stop." I said shakily. It was not feeling right, I didn't want this. Not after what just happened.

Malfoy didn't listen though as he kept kissing and sucking at my neck.

"Draco s-stop." I said again as I felt the panic build up in my body. Tears were welling up in my eyes, I shouldn't be feeling the way I was feeling right now, but I couldn't hold it back.

"Stop lying to yourself." He growled hoarsely against my neck. His lips found mine again and he began to kiss me a little rougher than before. He leaned more on me to deepen his kiss, but I wanted him to stop.

"No stop! Malfoy stop! Please stop!" I cried as I pushed him away.

He sighed in irritation and sat up straight. "What?" he asked annoyed.

"You... it's too soon. I don't want this! You're just like Blaise! Don't do this to me! Not now!" I cried.

His face immediately darkened, he abruptly got off the couch and walked out of the common room without saying another word.

~•~

I stared after his silhouette for a split second as he disappeared in to the darkness of the dungeons. Did I hurt his pride? He left me alone. Did I really hurt him? I always hurt him before right? Then why do I feel so depressed?

"Malfoy!" I yelled. "I mean, Draco..." I said with a soft voice after that.

But he didn't return. He was gone, and left me alone.

Suddenly the common room didn't feel as save and welcoming as before. I looked around the room, no one was there besides the crackling fire.

Feeling absolutely the worst I headed back to the girls' dormitory. All I wanted now was to sleep and forget about everything that happened tonight even if it was 5 PM. I was too confused, too many things happening at once. The worst thing was that I couldn't get Malfoy out of my thoughts. The way he looked at me before he walked away. Dark, perhaps even angry.

I cursed at myself as I pulled the covers over my head. I was such an idiot.

~•~

Later that evening somebody shook me awake. I opened my eyes and saw Marie. "Marie?" I said groggily. "What's the time?"

"It's dinner time, are you coming down? Or would you rather stay here? I could get a house elf and-"

"No it's fine." I interrupted her. "Nobody knows what happened anyway."

Marie didn't say anything. We slowly walked to the door together.

"Are you and Malfoy together now?" she enquired with a smirk plastered on her face when we made our way down in to the common room. Her dark eyes danced at the thought of it.

"I don't think so." I said defiantly rolling my eyes. Were we? "But I do need to talk to him."

"I think he really cares about you." she said with a shrug. I didn't answer her and walked to the great hall in silence.