Wines And Guns

41.

Porsche watched Kinn lay quietly with his eyes closed. He wasn't sure how Kinn always managed to stay so calm in these situations. When he was shot in the forest, after the warehouse and now. The few minutes he had spent outside the hospital room were the most painfully hellish ones. He didn't want to freak out and make the matters worse by breaking infront of the family but he was doubtful of every person who entered the room now. He was upset with the bodyguards, upset with the venue's security, upset with himself. He had to constantly remind himself that he couldn't let his personal feelings affect Kinn's safety but seeing Kinn in the condition he was made him more and more furious on Nick. Where the hell was he when the man just entered with a knife and attacked Kinn.

"Porsche?"

"Yes?"

"Are you okay? You've been really quiet".

"I'm okay. I just didn't want to disturb you".

"Won't you go back? Is Porchay staying with your mother?"

That question was tearing him apart. Both Kinn and his mother needed him but he couldn't stay with both of them at the same time.

"I'm staying here. Porchay is there, the nurses are there."

"Are you sure about that?"

"I am Kinn."

"You know... The moment when anything like this happens is so chaotic. All those noises, the concerned voices, the ambulance. But once I'm inside the hospital room everything seems to go quiet. Like I have so much peace... Strange thoughts come to my mind. Thoughts I barely have time to think about otherwise."

"What type of thoughts?"

"I miss Big... Amidst all this it's like I forgot about him. Whenever during work the bodyguards change theirs shifts I look for him before I realise that I won't ever see him again. It's so weird how granted we take human lives for in this work. I miss Chan. I saw that man for years while growing up and in just matter of moments he was gone forever. Everything has changed so much around the house I feel so unused to it sometimes. A few days ago I asked a guard to call Chan to discuss some papers with me, the man just stood there awkwardly staring at me. Everything is moving so fast that I'm forgetting the people who were in my life for so long. Even Mama... Now that I have a reason to think of her so often is because Khwan wants to..."

"Kinn..."

He bent down to kiss the man's forehead softly.

"I have time for no one. I want to be there for you, for my family, for myself. But I never have time".

"You came over to stay with me even after working all day".

"You did the same. That wasn't anything special".

"It's not about who does something more special. We are there for eachother. Besides.... Will you miss me like this too?"

"What? Where are you going? I won't let you go that far in the first place ".

"Aww then hold me tight Khun Kinn".

He gently brought up one of Kinn's arms to wrap it around his shoulder.

"We don't have any leads on who that man was yet. He still hasn't been identified."

"He didn't seem like a trained assassin. He was either used just for a threat or was extremely undertrained".

"Why would anyone use an undertrained man for such a job?"

"Perhaps they just wanted to warn us... Maybe we'll receive some threat or demand soon... Or maybe another assassination attempt".