First Kisses Are Never Forgotten

Chapter 34

AARON

I think what made Addison so captivating to me when I first saw her was this. I knew there was something about her.

That she does something to me, changes me. Before what happened to me she'd make me go crazy, act on every impulsive thought I had when I was near her.

She invaded all my senses and thoughts to a level that made me chicken out every time I tried to talk to her.

But now, with everything that happened and the way I am now, I release what she's been doing from the beginning. Addison Carter is saving me. She's my savior, my god given solace, and the air I breathe. The beat of my heart and the keeper of my soul.

I thought I was obsessed with her just from seeing her around campus, but now, I got to know her. I heard her stories and have all of her engraved in my brain forever.

I know how much she loves her mom and how she would do anything for Scarlett. I know how she wants to help young athletes and help build a better life for them.

I know her heart, her body and soul. All I want now is to own them. To be a person who deserves to have her, all of her. I want to be a better person for her.

Not the Aaron that was on campus, who led a sad life with only volleyball in it. And not Aaron who is haunted by his choices and storms.

I want to live for her. For myself. I want to be able to look in the mirror and see a man deserving of her, of the family and the life he has.

I want to be with her all the time, if I can't, then I will try every single minute of every day to be better. To be with her and take her to live with me the best life we could ever have.

"I'm on the pill by the way."

I laugh into her shoulder. Maybe, it's easier to trap her with a baby, so she would never leave me. Right?

"That thought never crossed my mind once, mi alma."

"I'm sorry about the...my nails." Her cheeks redden.

My little whore has claws, and she loved to mark me.

"I'll beg you this time to mark me some more. Don't apologize for making me yours." my low murmur darkens her ocean blue eyes.

She shines me a melting smile and bites her lower, swollen lip.

She traces the tattoos on my arms and shoulder. I only have one tattoo above my heart, she kisses it and traces it with her finger.

"It looks pretty. What's the date for?"

It's a violet flower across it, a date. Our date. The date of the day I kissed her.

I had this tattoo the day right after I had my first kiss with Addison Carter. Her first kiss. I wish she was my first too. I was so happy that day, I couldn't stop smiling and replaying it in my mind.

"First Kiss."

She chuckles lightly. "You really know how to charm a girl who's lying naked on top of you, huh?"

I join her chuckling and tell her the truth. "Best kiss I've ever had. What can I say, I'm proud I kissed her, she was a real catch."

"I bet." She's giggling now. I love this side of her. I saw the professional doctor, the daughter, the friend, but I love this Addison. The one she is with me.

"You have no idea." I pull her up to me and give her another kiss that would melt us both, just like that one years ago.

I hold her tight to me, after the kiss, and I feel her starting to drift away to sleep.

"I forgive myself, mi alma. As long as you are with me, I'll do everything to be good to you."

She only smiles while closing her eyes and snuggles closer to me.

I close my eyes too and find myself calm. I don't feel scared to sleep. I don't feel the alarming feeling I get when I know the storm is coming. I only feel Addison.

I feel peace. I feel alive.

"Are you living yet, doctor?"

"Yes, I am."

"Are you happy, mi alma?"

"I am, now."

I smile down at her.

I turn off the light next to me and hold her again tightly. "How would I ever or ever did live without you, mi alma." I whisper in the dark.

I wasn't living before her, I know that.

I wouldn't live without her too.

I couldn't.