The Proposal

14 - Fun

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After a few seconds of sitting speechless, I went back to my room. Immediately, I started fanning my face with my hands as if that was supposed to make me cool down. I then took a moment to take deep breaths in and out.

I was seriously trying to calm down. I felt very aroused. As if my sex dream wasn't enough, he went and did that? What were his plans?

I had so many questions. Questions i knew i couldn't get answers to. I couldn't help but replay what happened in my head and wonder if he was also feeling what I felt.

Was he attracted to me?

Was he developing feelings for me?

I needed to know because the way he looked at me, it wasn't just a random look. It had a secret meaning to it, and I had no idea how to find out.

Ughh! This was all so frustrating.

I decided I needed some air, and I needed to get out of the house. The tension was just unbearable. So I called for the driver and asked him to pick me up and take me to the beach.

I dressed up nicely in one of my beach wears, took my sunscreen and glasses, and was set to go. The driver came and took me to the beach as requested.

I got to the beach, got myself a cocktail drink, and found myself a beach lounge chair just a few metres away from the water and laid down on it. I applied some sunscreen on the exposed part of my body and relaxed back on the chair.

I closed my eyes, inhaling the fresh and cool air of the beach, instantly feeling better. I felt my nerves relaxing and my body settling. I opened my eyes and admired the beautiful scenery in front of me.

I took my drink and started sipping it little by little as I watched random people. Some bathing in the beautiful sun, some taking pictures, some swimming, some playing with each other. While some were just being romantic with each other.

I watched a couple having a picnic just by the edge of the water. I thought that was crazy, but they seemed to be enjoying themselves, smiling and laughing. I admired them, I even wished to be them.

The truth was I had never really had a nice relationship, I guess I was just unlucky.
I never went on cute dates or picnics. I always just found myself in the guy's house and then... Well, I did things I ended up regretting.
Maybe I let myself be too easy, too cheap, and accessible to men that all they did was take advantage of me and left me.

Maybe.

At least I had learnt my lesson. And even though I said I never wanted to date again, deep down, I still wanted to, but I wanted to be with a man who would love me. Who would take me on dates, picnics, parks, fares, and everything I could think of without once thinking about my body.

"Hi," a male voice suddenly brought me out of my thoughts. I turned to my side and saw a guy come beside me. He was tall and good-looking, dressed simply in some loose shorts and a tank top. He actually looked sexy.
"Do you mind?" He asked, referring to the chair just beside me.

"Oh no, go ahead," I replied, and he sat down on it. I mean, why not? He was handsome and I could use some handsome company.

"I saw you from over there..." he pointed behind him, "...and i couldn't help but wonder what a beautiful woman like you is doing all by yourself, " he said, with a nice cute smile.

I smiled back, maybe even blushed a little. I know he came here to flirt with me, and I was ready to flirt back.

"Oh, I was just..."