Unconditional Love ;))

Chapter 49 - goodbye

Chapter 49

Pag nagmahal ba at nasaktan dapat bang matakot na?

Pag nagmahal ka ba ng isang tao mahihirapan ka ng mag mahal ng iba bukod sa kanya?

Ang pag mamahal ba ay dapat nakatuon sa iisang tao?

Paano kung iniwan ka at sinaktan?

Paano kung may bagong dumating at mahalin ka?

Pag minahal ka nya at nagustuhan mo sya, okay na ba?

Pano pag bumalik dati mong minahal?

Babalik ka ba sa dati o mamumuhay kasama ng bago?

Hindi kaya mahal mo lang yung luma dahil nanghihinayang ka sa salitang “pinagsamahan”.

Pwede bang mas higitan ng bago ang nararamdaman mo kay luma?

Nico’s POV

Dinala ko sya sa condo ko. I carried her all the way to my unit. Ang gaan gaan nya. Nakasuot sa kanya ung varsity jacket ko na sobrang laki sa kanya. I placed her on my bed. She’s the first girl to sleep there. Inayos ko ung pag kakahiga nya. I zipped the jacket because her blouse is broken. Ang sama sama ni Jay. Lalo ako nakaramdam ng galit. Di ako nagsisisi na ginawa ko un sakanya.

I watched her as she sleeps. Something is bothering me.

I don’t want to admit it but I think I really like this girl. Pero alamkong di pwede. Alam kong ayaw nya at ayoko din naman mag habol at mamalimos ng atensyon sa kanya. She’s not yet over with her ex. Ano bang gagawin ko. Iiwas ba ko o hahayaan ko ang sarili kong mas lalo pang mapapalapit sa kanya?

Thea’s POV

“Tama na. Tama na.” Napaupo ako. Naiiyak nanaman ako. Takot na takot ako dun sa guy. Inikot ko ung mata ko. Nananaginip pla ko.

Pamilyar ung kwarto. Color blue. Umusog ako ng konti at nakita ko si Nico na natutulog ng nakaupo sa tabi ko. Nakapatong sa kama ung ulo nya habang nakaupo naman sya sa upuan. Tinignan ko sya ng malapitan. Tulog na tulog sya. For the second time hinayaan nya ko matulog sa kama nya.

Flashback.

Naalala ko na ung nangyari. The guy who was about to raped me. Takot na takot ako. Hinabol nya ko sa old building. Nung una sinusundan nya lang ako tapos bigla nya kong hinawakan sa braso. Natakot ako kaya ako tumakbo. I tried to scream but no one came in to help me.

Takbo ako ng takbo. Pagod na pagod nko. Nagtago ako sa isang room.

Nagulat ako nung biglang may humawak sa bewang ko at niyakap ako ng mahigpit. He was too near. He was pressing his body to my body. I could feel his breathing.

I tried to escape and shout. Ang lakas nya. Hiniga nya ko tapos bigla nyang pinunit ung blouse ko. Iyak ako ng iyak. Takot na takot ako.

“Lee help. *sob*” For the second time I was calling for his name again.

I failed again. Di sya dadating. Di nya ko ililigtas. Di nya ko tutulungan.

He was pushing his body to me. He’s trying to kiss me. Iyak ako ng iyak.

“Tulooooong!” I shouted.

“Please Nico. Please help me” I whispered. “Tama na. *sob* Please *sob*”

The guy released my hands. I heard punches. I opened my eyes and saw Nico. I covered my body. He kneeled and covered my body with his jacket. This feeling reminds me again of Lee. He was the one who did this to me before. Why do I have to remember things connected to him?

I called him but he didn’t come.  Bakit si Nico dumating? Bakit kung sino pang tinutulak ko palayo sya pa ang dumating? Bakit kung sino pang gusto kong dumating sya pa ang di dumating? Bakit ganon?

“Stop crying. Im here.” He whispered. Those words became my blanket. I feel safe. I calmed myself. I wanted to thank him but no words came out of my mouth.

He helped me stand and put his arms on my shoulders. He pressed me closer to his body. I felt warmness. I felt security.

End of flashback.

I sat near Nico. Tears started to form from my eyes. He really reminds me so much of Lee. The way he protects me and the way he treats me. My heart starts to pound hard. This heart that actually became my weakness. People might find it weird but loving is easy but falling is hard. You may feel love to anyone easily but falling to a certain person is the hardest.

Details from Lee flashed back to me. The way he puts his varsity jacket to me, the time he announced to the gym that Im his special person and the way he protects me from danger. Those things that made me fall deep to him are actually happening again. The question is, WILL I ALLOW IT TO HAPPEN AGAIN?

I touched Nico’s face. Wala naman syang kinalaman sa lahat ng nangyayari sakin pero nadadamay sya. My tears started to fell as I did my farewell to him.

“Goodbye Nico. Thank you for everything.” I kissed his forehead and left his pad.

As I took steps away from his pad, I felt hardness on my chest. My tears won’t stop as if saying I can’t do it. My mind wanted to leave but my heart wanted to stay. Ironic huh. My heart wanted to be stay with him as if we knew each other for a long time.

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Authors Note: guys poll lang ha: lagay po kayo ng comment kung team Nico or Lee kayo. Baka kasi gusto nyo pa bumalik si Lee e :) thanks. 

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