Unconditional Love ;))

Chapter 31

Thea's POV

I arrived at Manila with Wax, Mark and Migs.

Nalaman nila na uuwi ako mag isa. Wala akong nagawa nung sinabi nila na sasama sila.

Si Wax ang katabi ko sa plane. Naguguluhan kasi ako. Hinahanap ng utak ko si Lee pero ung puso ko alam kong hinahanap si Migs.

Touch Down.

Manila.

Thea: Wax please sa condo ni Lee tayo dumiretso.

Ngumiti lang si Wax at kinuha ng gamit ko. Pumara ng taxi at pinasakay ako. Naiwan si Migs at Mark sa airport.

Wala kaming kibo ni Wax. Di ko alam sasabihin ko.

Wax: hey are you okay?

Thea: (i smiled a bit) i dont know Wax.

Wax: you still love him?

Thea: (love him? Si Migs) di naman kasi ganun kadali kabilis mawala un eh.

Wax: funny you are. Im referring to Lee. Pero dahil na kay Migs pala ang focus mo, alam ko na. Sya pa din pla. (Tumingin sa malayo si Wax, medyo napahiya ako dun. Tinignan ko sya. Siguro nga si Migs pa din pero pano si Lee)

Wax: i have a unsolicited advice Thea. If you dont love Lee then set him free. You cant keep them both or else you will loose them both. Life is cruel. Sometimes you have to choose between your happiness and love.

I cant keep them both. Tama. I cant.

Thea: pero Wax ayoko ng may masaktan. Ayoko. (Then i started to cry again.)

Wax: geez. Wag kang umiyak Thea. You choose. Migs or Lee. Ayan na condo ni Lee. Tutuloy ba tayo?

I want to love Lee as much as possible but how can I love him if my heart belongs to Migs. Pag nagkita kme anong sasabihin ko? Anong gagawin ko?

I closed my eyes.

Inisip ko ung years na pinagsamahan namin versus ung ponagsamahan namin ni Lee. Naluha ako lalo. Ang nakikita ko sa isip ko puro si Migs. Bakit? Bakit sya? Di ba pwedeng si Lee na lang? Bakit ganon.

Lee was just a rebound.

It hurts to realized that I used him as a rebound.

Wax: ano andito na tayo. You have decision?

I smiled and nod.

Bumaba kme ng cab at pumunta sa lobby. Kinakabahan ako. I dont know how to explain my decision.

Pagdating namin sa lobby sinabi ng receptionist na umakis si Lee kagabi. Andaming dalang damit and he left a note. The receptionist handed the note to Wax and then to me.

Hinatin na ko ni Wax sa bahay. I went inside my room and sat on the bed.

Umalis si Lee. Only God knows where he is.

Humiga ako sa kama. Takot akong buksan ung letter. Naiiyak nanaman ako. Why is my life full of drama?

Kakaiyak ko nakatulog na pla ako. Ang gulo gulo na kasi ng utak ko. I need someone to cry on. Naisip ko si Drew pero wag na. It wil just complicate the issue.

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I woke up because i heard the buzzer.

May tao. I glanced at the watch and realized its alread 8pm.

I went out and opened the door.

It was Migs. Naghesitate akong papasukin sya nung una pero kailangan. To clear things out.

Pinaupo ko si Migs sa sofa. Pupunta dapat ako ng kitchen ng bigla nyang niyakap ung likod ko.

"Please listen to me" bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Nararamdaman ko din ng tibok ng puso nya. Masyado syang malapit.

"Kung mag eexplain ba ko papakinggan mo ko?"

Finally. Malalaman ko na ung dahilan.

I removed his arms and sat on the sofa.

"I'll listen"

He sat beside me and cleared his throat.

"Thea i didnt mean to leave. Kung alam mo lang pinag daanan ko. Mag isa lang akong hinarap un. Mag isa lang ako" tears fell from him. Pinunasan nya agad. Gusto ko syang sagutin. Di lang sya ang naghirap. Di lang din nya alam pinag daanan ko. Di nya alam ung hirap na nararanasan ko every night. I even gave myself to my rebound.

"I had an operation. I dont want you to experience the stress that i felt. Sinaktan kita. Thats my only way to get over you. Walang kasi guraduhan ung pinasok ko."

Anong operation? Ano un? Bat di ko alam. I started crying.

"Thea just listen. I dont want you to talk. Let me finish first"

"I experienced the symptoms 2 years ago. Mom and I consulted the doctor already that time. My heart is weak Thea." I saw tears again. Its breaking my heart 2 times.

"Ive been drinking medicines at your back. Im seeking advices without you knowing it. Until one day that the doctor told me it not enough." He paused. Tears rolling big time. Im crying like him. Its really breaking my heart.

"The doctor suggested to undergo surgery. Thea there is no possibility that it will be successful. Hindi ko pa rin sinabi syo. Natatakot ako na baka di maging successful at di ako magising. I dont want you to feel the pain." He was crying already. I could hear him sobbing. Di ko na kaya. I hugged him.

What kind of girlfriend am I? Ba di ko alam. Anong surgery? Aong sakit? Bakit di ko alam.

"Babe i had an open heart surgery, my heart is weak. Nagpunta lang ako ng US para dun. The day I asked you to marry me was my sign. Pag pumayag ka sasabihin ko syo. Till death do us apart. Pero sabi mo di pa ngayon. Nung panahon na yun akala ko wala ng time."

Kaya pala sya nagmamadali.

"Now or never ang naiisip ko nun babe. Wala na kong 5 years kung di ako nagrisk mag undergo ng operation."

"Alam mo ba na alam kong kayo ni Lee. Ive been asking Mark to update me about you. Its breaking my heart to hear that your in love with my bestfriend."

"My traitor bestfriend."

Traitor? Si Lee?

"What do you mean by traitor." Atlast nagsalita na ko. I dont want him to call Lee traitor. He was my strength when Migs left me.

He wipe his tears. Smiled .

"He was supposed to be my eye on you. I asked him to look after you and not to be your boyfriend. I trusted him to be your support system. Gagong un nag take advantage."

Take advantage? Support system?

Tang ina! Is he just doing that because Migs told him to do it? Ako lang ang tanga na sumakay? Bakit ganon? I gave him myself.

"Alam ko lahat ng pinag daanan nyo Thea. Is braeking my heart to know everything. I feel like a masochist. Inaalam ko lahat pero mas lalo akong nasasakatan pero alam mo ba na un ung lalong nagpatibay sa puso ko. Gusto kong gumaling para makita ka na."

Bakit ginawa ni Lee un. Bakit.

"Look at this." He opened his buttons. I saw the scar. The sutures. "This scars healed for you. This heart wants you back. Its not the same heart before but still it was beating because of you." Tear felling from him.

"This wants you back. Please"

Ang sakit sakit din pala ng pinag daanan nya. Mas masakit kesa sa akin. I thought he was just fell out of love. I am wrong. He did it for me. Naguity ako. Pero masakit. Para akong napag laruan. Pero anong gagawin ko. Kailangan ako ni Migs.

Niyakap ko si Migs. Umiiyak pandin ako, di ko alam kung tama ung nasa utak ko.

"Migs stop."

"Iloveyou babe." Those are the last word i said.