Hands | DNF

9.

"I have an idea. Let's ask each other questions back and forth but we have to be completely honest. "

"Yeah sure. Who starts?"

"You can start, George?"

"When did you start smoking?"

"4 years ago. What about you pretty boy?"

"Around an year ago. Craziest place you've had sex?"

"You know those scary/horror houses? Inside while there were people going through it."

"WTF?! I was not expecting that."

"My turn. What happened 4 years ago? Your brother mentioned that you have bottled emotions from then."

I felt a tear rolling down my cheek. I didn't bother wiping it cause I knew there was a lot where that came from. I just took a huge puff from the cigarette.

"Well look around. Notice something? How empty this house is? How when my brother works I am alone? Yep 4 years ago my mom passed away from cancer."

My voice was so shaky. I see Dreams eyes widen and sadness settle.

"George I didn't know I'm so sorry. Why didn't you tell us me and Sapnap?"

"What was the point? I got pity from enough people you guys were the only ones treating me like I am not made from glass."

"George, how did you bottle this for so long?"

"I don't know. It was just easier, I guess."

"Easier?"

"I didn't want to worry anyone. So i Just kept it for myself."

"George, you made us worry more by not telling me."

I looked down not knowing what to do. I felt awful just by looking at him. And seeing the hurt in his eyes makes me want to just die. Suddenly I feel it coming. I feel the food coming up so I get up and run to the toilet. I don't think about anything, I just focus on reaching the toilet in time. I stick my head in the toilet and throw up every bit of food in my stomach.

When I'm done, I'm really tired and just sit on the floor and lay my head on the seat.

I feel a hand rub my back and I want to shrink. I wipe my mouth and get up. I wash my hands and mouth. I go to the sofa. Dream following me like a puppy.

"Dream I am really tired can we maybe go to bed a bit early."

"Yeah sure. Let's get you to your bed."

As I get up I feel really lightheaded considering that the only food I had eaten was now gone.

Clay holds me and makes sure I don't fall down the stairs. When we reach my room he helps me to my bed and tucks me in.

"The guest room is right in front of mine bedroom so you should be able to find it easily."

"I will be fine, Goggy. Now just go to bed. You need it."

"I told you I hate that nickname. You never listen, you pissbaby."

"You called me baby."
He said with a cheeky smile and left. I fell asleep almost immediately.