Hands | DNF

28.

Another dreadful morning. I wake up just to realize it was not all a dream. The reality of the situation settles down and I look around. I find bandages on my arm and realize that last night's events weren't just a creation of my imagination but that I'll have to live with them.

I crawled out of my bed and brushed my teeth. I didn't look up in the mirror as much as I wanted to I knew I was just going to see the stranger that was looking at me for months now. Instead I glued my eyes to the sink, fighting every urge to look up. I hurried out of bathroom.

The time on the clock read 9:05AM.

After me and Sap talked for a little longer him helping me with my arm. He made sure I had taken the pills before going to bed.

I go out of my room and head straight to Clay's room. I have not spoken to him since I yelled at him yesterday. I knock on the door and only after a few seconds I got a response telling me that I could go in.

When I entered and we locked eyes he straightened up.

"I am so sorry about yesterday. And over what? The stupid medicine. I just need you to know that I didn't mean what I said. I could never hate you. You have been so patient and nice to me and I just yelled at you for trying to do what was best for me."

He stood up from the bed and started coming closer to me. I ignored it and continued.

"I don't feel like myself when I take those pills. I know they are supposed to help me but I hate how I act when I take them. And it just makes me feel so weak for needing pill so I can feel better but even they don't help. They numb everything even the happiness and good emotions. I feel like I am not here and this is not real. I can't believe that this is real life and that will sound so dumb but I can't believe you're real."

While rambling he was just smiling at me saying nothing. The second I finished the sentence he stepped forward and I heard him mumble

"Oh for god's sake!"

He placed his hand on my cheek and immediately pulled me to him as he pressed his lips on mine. The sock wore off a few seconds into the kiss and I returned it. He bit my bottom lip and I slightly opened my mouth. Immediately he deepened the kiss and his tongue slipped into my mouth. Exploring every part of it. The slow was not fast or rushed. It was passionate and it just became more and more as the seconds went by. His hands moved to my waist and mine connected around his neck. We started moving backwards until my back hit the wall.

He started to kiss my neck and when he found  the sweet spot on my neck a noise came out of my mouth. Embarrassed i tried to cover my mouth with my hand. He immediately grabbed both of my hands and pinned them on the wall above my head.

"I want to hear you."

His voice had gone a few tones deeper and more graspy as he was breathing heavily. He pressed himself to me and started kissing my neck again. This time when he found back that one spot he started sucking it, licking it and biting it. I didn't have much control over the whimpers that were coming out of me. I bit my lip as to contain them but that only worked until he pressed himself harder against me. I could feel his entire body and he could mine.

He let my hands go and started to kiss me again on my lips. My hands found their way at the bottom of his shirt trying to pull it off. He helped me and disconnected from the kiss just to pull his shirt off and immediately reconnected them with mine. He brought his hands down and lifted me up he started carrying me to the bed. Just then did we hear a loud knock at the bedroom door.