Hands | DNF

31.

You are just a burden! You are just a burden! You are just a burden!

The voice was screaming and getting louder with each passing second. I couldn't stay longer on the table.

I fake yawned and started to get up.

"Guys, I am going to bed I am really tired. Good night!"

I believe that for the first time in my life I pulled an Oscar worthy performance. Even after saying my goodbyes. I was walking like I was half asleep. At least until I reached the door to my room.

I entered, turned around, closed the door and slid down with my back to it. Everything from today came rushing at me like a truck. I put my hands over my mouth as to try to cover any sound coming from my mouth.

I was crying so much that my entire body was shaking I tried over and over to take a breath to calm myself down with no success I got up and started to pace through my room trying to find something to distract me.

This is not happening I started panicking more and more and still I felt like someone was sat on my chest and I was not able to take a breath. Nothing worked I couldn't calm myself down.

I quickly threw the door open and ran to Davids room. I swung his door open and ran in making sure to shut it as loudly as I could.

FUCK! I am so useless I cannot even close a door properly. Now probably everyone in the house knew something was wrong.

The second I flung in the room David immediately locked eyes with me. His look changed a second later when he heard me gasping for air and panicking while trying to explain but not being able to get the words out.

He jumped out of bed and ran to me. He pulled a chair from his desk and crouched infront of me.

"George, I need you to breath! Tell me things you see around my room, no stopping until I say so."

"Laa... La....." I couldn't get more than half a word out of this and I was starting to feel faint.

Apparently David saw this and decided to react before thinking.

The next thing I know is I am drenched and holly shit apparently this jolted me back to reality. I started to feel air ecpand my lungs. After 20 seconds my breathing had calmed down and I realized what happened.

While panicking David managed to grab a jug of water from the table and literally drench me.

I was death staring him probably looking like a sewer rat. He just looked at me took a breath and tried to hold a laugh that was going to escape.
"Okay that worked it seems."

"You think so? What gave you that impression?" I didn't know if I wanted to kill him or thank him.

"George what the hell?! Why were you having a panic attack."

"I was just board so I decided to switch up my day to day life. " I said sarcastically trying to escape the coming conversation.

"Cut the jokes. What the hell? Start talking, please!"

"Thank you for helping me but I really don't want to talk about it right now. Also I am freezing why was this water so cold?"

"Well I got it from the fridge like 4 minutes ago. I am not going to push you to open up if you don't want to right now. But this is not the end of this conversation so next time no skip pass. Go dry yourself."

As I head out and open the door I hear David speak again.

"Don't forget tomorrow 1pm you have an appointment with Dr. Colins!"

I took a breath and exited the room only to find the 3 boys sitting in the hallway right in front of the room.

Stupid door shut.