If Loving You Is Wrong

Casha

Jr has been calling constantly trying to apologize. I'm just not ready to forgive him yet. That's the type of shit that could get a nigga life took on some it's a thin line between love and hate shit. You shouldn't play with anyone's feelings like that. Who do I think I'm fooling through? I wouldn't do that though even if I could, 1) As much as I hate to admit it I still love his stupid ass and 2) I have a child that he has to be a father too.

Jr textes me: let's go to lunch.:

:No thanks.:

Jr: Casha when you gone talk to me about what happen? We need to get this shit out of the way and move forward:

:Could be tomorrow, the day after that, or the day after, or never. I don't know, go ask yo bitch.:

He send something else but I don't check it. I get back in the house from my daily walk. "Girl what plans do you have for tonight?"Keysha asks. "Nothing, why?" "Remember my cousin Trey... Well he'll be in town tonight for this charity ball." "Okay and?" "He wants you to be his date!" "What you mean? Like what the fuck he gone do with me, I'm big and pregnant and a hot ass mess." "Girl boo ! I'll hook you right on up. You just let me do all the work. "

She finds me a dress and does my hair and make up, I was starting to feel like my old self a little. This baby bump though was surely broadcasting itself to the world.

A limo pulls up outside and Trey comes to the door. "Hey cousin!" Keysha yells. "What's up girl?" He says hugging her. "Your date is almost ready, let me go see what's keeping her." Keysha comes back in the room. "You look amazing girl." "I don't feel like it." I say looking at myself in the mirror. "Trust me girl you do." "Here goes nothing." I grab my clutch and walk out.

"Damn look at you. You look amazing Cay! How long has it been? My, my, my twirl around for me." I laugh at Trey and I spin around. "Yes and you've filled out so nice." "You're so silly." I say hugging him.

He escorts me to the limo and off to the ball we go."Thank you for being my date." He says looking at me. "No problem, it's my pleasure. I could use a nice night out." A night out could do me some good, this ball should be a great distraction. I've been knowing Trey since we we're young. Not only from him being Keysha's cousin but he use to stay right down the street from me.

We get to the ball and the building reminds me of a castle. We go inside and its decor is so elegant. This looks like something out of Cinderella. "Would you like to dance?" Trey asks extending out his hand. "Sure." I say taking it.

This wasn't your average party, it was a real ball. There was no twerking or grinding none of that just classy dressed people dancing classy. I was really enjoying myself.

We go and sit down. "Do you want anything?" Trey asks getting up. "Some punch and those cute little finger sandwiches." He laughs and walks off.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" I turn around and see Jr standing over me. "A date, who the fuck let you in and why?" I ask rolling my eyes. "Who you on a date with?" "A guy." I say in a nonchalant tone. "That's why you can't answer my calls or messages? You fucking a nigga with my seed inside you." "Fuck you Jr and if I am so fucking what, that's none of your concern."

I would never disrespect myself, my child, nor his dumb ass like that. I wouldn't ever even pull myself to do some foul shit like that but I won't stop Jr from thinking about some shit like that. He brought it up for a reason call me childish but whatever, I want that shit to get inside his damn head. "Cay don't play with me!" "Didn't I tell you not to talk to me?" "Let me find out Cay and ima fuck you up."

"Sorry you already did that. Get the fuck away from me. I'm not yo girl nigga you don't run shit!" Trey comes back over, "Everything okay Cay?" "Yes it is. He was just leaving." "That's foul Cay real foul, I still love you tho." Jr says before walking away. "What was that about?" Trey asks. "An Ex." "Damn."

We leave out and go to this nice restaurant somewhere I'm sure I wouldn't run into Jr. That shit from earlier just blew me like who the fuck does this nigga think he is. This is not even that type of date. Just because I'm pregnant with his child does not mean he's about to think run my ass. I will chill with whoever I want. He can save all that shit for his girlfriend.

"What you getting?" Trey asks. "I'm really feeling like it's a steak night.... What are you getting?" "Some calamari." "Ew Trey really?" He laughs, "Yeah, you gotta expand your taste buds." "I'm all down for that but not calamari." "Just try one." I look at him, "No thanks Trey." "Come on Cay." "Trey..." "Cay... Just try one please I promise I'll buy the biggest gift I can find for the baby." "You better buy my baby a gift anyway." He laughs, "I am. Your practically like the little cousin I always had." I laugh, "I thought the phrase was like I never had." "It's too many of us for me to say never had. You were right there with us, you know. So can you try just one?" "I guess I'll try just one."

I hate this shit and so did my baby. I get up and go straight to the restroom before that plus what I've eaten today came back up all over this damn restaurant. I wipe my face and go back out. "Damn Cay I'm sorry about that." "It's okay Trey." I say. "Well now you know what they don't like." He says cracking a smile. I laugh.

Once I make it back to the house it's midnight. I really had fun with Trey. He is such a gentlemen. He walks me to the door and kisses me on the cheek good night. My night was great overall minus the whole Jr drama.