If Loving You Is Wrong

Casha

I wake up to Jr phone is ringing. Who is calling him this early in the morning. "Jr answer that shit." I say shaking him. "Man I'll call them back." It stops and starts ringing again. I pick it up and answer it, "Hello?" "Where's my son?" It was his mama, I shake Jr again, I definitely wasn't about to talk to her. "It's yo mama Jr." He sucks his teeth. "Tell her I'll call her back later I'm tryna sleep man." I look back at his phone. "He said he'll call you back later." I tell her. "Make sure he does that." She says before hanging up. That was rude.

"What she want?" Jr asks wrapping me back in his arms. "She didn't say. But she wants you to call her." "Alright." We fall back asleep. Then my phone started ringing, it's Keysha. "Hello?" "What you doing buttercup?" "I was sleeping. This is morning everyone decides to call." "My bad love. I'm coming over with breakfast in an hour though." "Okay." "Alright. I love you Cay." "I love you too Keysha." We hang up. I shift in the bed.

"Stop moving." Jr mumbles. "Well tell people to stop calling and your son to stop moving around." "Put these phones on silent." "I'm about to get up anyway. Keysha is coming over with breakfast." Jr sucks his teeth, "Man." I roll my eyes and get up. I find an outfit for today.

An hour later Keysha shows up. "Good morning Cay." "Good morning girl!" I say coming down the stairs. "Where's Jr?" "Still sleep." "Oh. Girl like what was up with that shit at the baby shower?" She asks. We sit about the table and she passes me a plate from Waffle House. "Girl I don't even know what to say. It's clear that his mother doesn't like me and to be honest I don't care for her either. I don't know what Tatyanna called herself doing yesterday but I honestly don't have time for all this shit with people who are irrelevant to me." "True but his mama should know better than to do all of that." "Your right but she probably doesn't see it that way."

Jr comes down the stairs, "What y'all doing?" "Eating. I told you she was bringing breakfast." Keysha passes him his plate. "Good morning brother in law." Keysha says to him, he smiles. "Good morning Sister in law." "Who getting married?" I ask. Jr laughs, "Us nigga." He says. "Whattttt yo mama going for it?" I ask still going along with it. He laughs harder, "Stop that Cay."

"So how you feel about all the baby shower?"
Keysha asks Jr. "Man shit was all good till that bs." "They really could've stayed whenever they were at and left me be."I say. "I figured they would have acted right, but if I knew Taty would have been there from the beginning I wouldn't have invited all of them." "What does she have to do with anything? She was the only one, from what I could hear, that was talking decent."

"I say that because I already know how they are about her and the way my mama cussed me out the last time, should've known it would've gotten crazy." "Hmm." "That's crazy tho and your mom and your sister in law kept whispering lil slick stuff. I couldn't make everything out. But it was still rude as fuck. No disrespect to your mom Jr." Keysha says. "It's cool. That shit was just messy as fuck." Jr says. "Agreed." We finish eating and putting everything up from yesterday that was still sitting in the living room. We're done and Keysha leaves.

A car pulls up outside. "Jr who is that?" I ask. "Ion know yet." He says peeking out the window. He sighs. "It's my mama." He says going to the door. "And it's Tatyanna. What the hell? She a spokesperson now?" Jr says opening the door. I go upstairs and organize the baby room with the gifts from yesterday. I hear them come inside.

My phone rings, it's Grandma Rose. "Good morning Grandma Rose." I say answering. "Good morning baby. How are you?" "I'm good how are you?" "I'm alright. I'm sorry I couldn't make it yesterday. "It's okay. I know you would've been there if you could." "Yes child now what's all this drama that went on yesterday." I explain the whole story to her. "Well don't take it personal baby. They just haven't given you a chance yet." "I know."

"You have to stand your ground with this family so I'm not even mad at y'all especially Jr. Make sure he calls me." "Yes ma'am." "Alright now love you Cay." "Love you too Grandma." We hang up and I go back downstairs.

I see Taty and smile at her. Jr ma gets up and hug me. "Casha I'm so sorry about yesterday it was childish to talk about you like that ." She says to me. I can either a) accept it and move on or b) keep up with the bs. Option A it is. "It's okay I understand kind of." "How is my grandson doing in there?" She says rubbing my stomach. Jayden kicks and mama Sharon smiles. "Oh wow he knows his grandma already."

We go and sit in the living room. Taty and Jr goes out by the pool. "I'm really really sorry about yesterday I was really into my feelings. My son told me nothing about any of this." "It's okay." "No it's not I shouldn't have acted that way.... My mother speaks highly of you." She says referring to Grandma Rose. "I love me some Grandma Rose, she's a sweet lady." "Yes that she is. Can you promise me something?" "What's that?" "Make sure my son stays in line and in check."

I laugh, "Yes ma'am I got you. Although he does pretty good now." "I know but with the life he's living it can get crazy and he will need someone like you in his corner." "Agreed." "I must say it speaks volumes that you would still stuck around even after the whole thing with Tatyanna." "They say love can make you do some crazy things." She laughs, "I know that's right."

Jr and Taty comes back in. We sit around and talk some more and we're really enjoying ourselves until Tatyanna was ready to go. I wonder how she really feels about all of this. It can't be easy watching the man you've loved be with someone else. Jayden moves around. He's moving around every second lil busy body.

Jr mama hugs me good bye and Taty says bye as well. They left. My phone rings from a message :I don't think Dre would have took well you getting pregnant by him. Both of y'all better watch ya back. You never know who's watching: "Jr come read this." "What?" He says coming into the bed room. He reads the message, "Niggas love playing with they life."

He calls Rico and gave him the rundown then he makes a few other calls. "Alright pack you a lil bag Cay." "So where are we going?" "Well for right now, you'll be with my mama." "And where are you going?" "I'll be there too." "Okay."

We finish packing. I just got into my new house and can barely enjoy the shit. This is so frustrating. We get in the car and head over to his mothers hotel.

Jr knocks on the door, "You miss me already." She says opening the door. Jr laughs and we walk in. "The hotel working on the room next door for us." He tells her. I walk in and sit down. "You okay Casha?" She asks me. "I've been better." "Aw it will be okay."

A few hours later they get our room ready. We go and sit our bags inside. "You hungry Cay?" "Not really." "You haven't eaten all day you need to eat something. It's a Chinese place next to the hotel." "Okay." "I'll go ask mama if she wanna come." "Okay that's cool." He leaves out and come right back in, "Alright let's go."

We leave and head to the place. The food smelled good once we got inside. We sit down and order our food. "I'm glad I have two of my favorite girls with me." Jr says. We both smile. "Glad to be here son. Now let's get to business, do you love Casha?" "Absolutely." "Do you see yourself with her in ten years?" "Yes hopefully married with 5 kids by then." I almost choke on my drink. Mama Sharon laughs. "What about you Casha? Jr what you be calling her?" "Cay." "Oh, so what about you Cay?"

"Yes I love him and I can see us as a family 10 years from now. I don't know all about that 5 kids things but um yeah." Jr and mama Sharon laugh. "Okay." She finally says.

We eat our food and go back to the room. I start feeling a lil sick. I go into the bathroom and throw back up everything I ate. Jr comes into the room. "You good baby?" "Apparently Jayden doesn't like Chinese." I say wiping my face. He laughs.

I lay on the bed. Jr lays next to me and his phones starts ringing. "What's up?..... Forreal..... Alright. Yeah!... Thanks man!" He hangs up. "Baby guess what?" "What?" "My album went platinum! They're throwing me a party this Friday." I smile, "Aw! Yay baby I'm proud of you." I kiss him. "Ew throw up breath." "I hate you." I say laughing. "So tomorrow we shop!... I gotta go tell my mama." He says getting up and rushing out. I laugh at him looking like a little boy. I hope my baby loves me just as much as Jr loves his mama.