If Loving You Is Wrong

Casha

I get up trying to reach for the remote but it's not working out so well. My stomach was really start to poke out a lot. That alone makes everything more difficult for me to reach.

My phone rings and it's Jr. "Hello." "Good morning, come open the door." I get up and open the door. "What are you doing here?" He comes inside with some bags and some movies. "I came to kick it with my babymama for the day." I roll my eyes, "Who says I didn't have plans today?" "Rico and Keysha did. They had to go out of state to handle some business, so they sent me over." "I don't need a fucking babysitter." "Cay just chill out." "Whatever."

I go and sit back on the sofa and start to text Keysha but my phone falls on the floor. I try to reach and get it but can't. Jr looks over at me and laughs. He comes over and picks it up. "Exactly why you need somebody else here with you." He says sitting beside me on the couch. He hands me my phone. "Thanks I guess." I lean back on the sofa and peek over at Jr. I must admit he's looking good in all white. His tattoos were out too, Uhm. "Why you staring at me?" Busted. "No one was staring at you Jr." He laughs, "Alright Cay whatever you say." He puts a movie in and passes me a breakfast plate from Waffle House.

I open it up and look inside. "How did you know I eat this?" I ask. "Last time we went, you told me that was your favorite meal" "Hmm." I take a bite out of the steak bits. It was so good and I've really been craving for some Waffle House all week. Jr puts in a movie. I start feeling sleepy and couldn't stop yawning. Jr moves and sits on the floor right in front of me while I stretch out on the sofa.

Two hours later I wake up hearing singing. I look down and see Jr singing and rubbing my stomach. It makes me smile and laugh a little. He looks up at me, "Sorry did I wake you?" "No you didn't." He turns around and starts watching the movie. "You can.. finish singing to the baby if you want." He smiles and puts his hand back on my stomach and starts humming. His touch gave me chills.

"You alright?" I laugh, he felt that?, "Yeah I'm fine... I wish we had some chips and apple juice in there. I could use both right about now." He smiles and passes me a bag he brought in earlier. He seems to know all the right stuff to get. "Jr how you know to get all this stuff?" "I know you." He says. "Oh okay."

"You took your pills today?" He asks referring to my vitamins. "Yeah." "What about your walk?" "No I haven't did that yet." "We can go after this movie goes off." "Okay." The movie goes off and I go into my room to change.

While changing my bra somehow becomes unhooked and Keysha ass was not here to help me. I debate on if I want to ask Jr or not. Not, I just take it off and throw a tank top on with a built in bra with it. Although it's nothing like a real bra it helps.

I walk back out of the room looking for my shoes. "They're already by the sofa. Come on and sit down." I sit down and he puts my shoes on. "Thanks." "Alright let's go." He says trying to grab my hand, I look up at him then get up and walk to the door. He locks up the house and we start our walk around the block.

It's such a beautiful day out. We walk pass this family outside playing. It makes me smile, it was so cute. "That could be us you know." Jr says looking at them too. His phone rings. "What's up baby?.... Where you at?... Alright I'm on my way." He hangs up. "That's exactly why it won't be us." I mumble.

"Ride with me Cay. Taty tire went flat." I look at him as if he has lost his damn mind. "Come on Cay... I'll stop by the store on our way there." I could use some more snacks. "I can't leave you by yourself either. Rico would chop my head off." He says looking down at me. "That doesn't sound like a bad idea actually." He twists his lips and I laugh. "Okay but I want a lot of stuff." I say finally agreeing to ride with him. "Get whatever you want." We walk back to the house and get in his car.

He does as he promised and we spent a good 20 minutes in the store picking up stuff. "You happy now?" He asks as we get back in the car. "Much." He looks at his phone, "Damn we spent too long in the store. She's going to kill me." I couldn't help but smile, "She'll be okay. I mean where else will she go with a flat tire? Can't do nothing but sit and wait." I say biting into my honey bun. He shakes his head and speeds off to her.

We pull up behind her and she looks the same since the last time I saw her. Jr gets out and goes over to her. I start playing with my phone, scrolling through my pictures. I never deleted any of me and Jr pictures. I start smiling until I look up to see them kissing. The sight of this shit is fucking disgusting.

Jr phone rings and I look at. It's Rico, I answer it. "Hey Rico." "Well good I know Jr is still alive... I think." I laugh, "Yes for now." "Where he at?" "Helping his bit- I mean his girlfriend." "Let me speak to him and be nice Cay." I smile hard, "I am." I get out and go over towards the car.

Tatyanna stares at me then Jr looks back "Jr, Rico wants you." I say handing him his phone. I see her still staring then she looks down at my stomach. Her eyes got huge and her smile dropped. "Cheap weave ass hoe." I mumble as I walk back to the car.

I get back in and she looks pissed. I start laughing. "Your daddy's girlfriend has nothing on your mommy." I say to my baby.

Jr gets in, "Are we done helping the damsel in distress?" I ask putting my seat belt on. "Not now Cay." "You okay?" I ask noticing he looks a little upset. "I'm straight."

We ride in silence the entire way back to the house. We get back to Rico's. I head straight to the sofa and kick my shoes off. Jr phone rings yet again and he walks off answering it.

"Look I'm doing what I have to do as a man and take care of shit I help create... No it's not that easy Taty... I told you before hand what I was feeling... Who am I with? Who do I come home to everyday? Ion know why yo ass trip about the small shit... She's not some random bitch off the street... What the fuck do you want me to do?... Man I chose you right? Okay then so shut all that extra shit up."

I stop listening after that. That makes me feel some type of way. He chose her. If wasn't for this child I probably wouldn't have shit to do with him. He comes back in and sit down. He tries to put his arm around my shoulder but I move his arm. "Don't tell me you tripping too?" He asks. Rico and Keysha walk through the door. "Your duties for today is over, go be with the one you chose." I say getting up and grabbing my bag and sitting them in my room.

I hear Rico and Jr talking about something but I can't make out what they're saying. I go into the kitchen and pick me up some fruit. Rico comes in. "You alright Cay?" "Yes I'm fine." "Alright well Jr said call him if you need anything." "I won't." He shakes his head and laughs.

My phone vibrates, Baby Daddy: Cay I'm sorry if I hurt you feelings. Y'all gotta nigga torn in between the two and I'm trying to handle shit the best way I know how. I know it's my fault shit happened this way but I'm trying to make it right. I can only do so much you gotta meet me halfway Cay. I love you baby girl and I know you still love me too. Can we go back to at least being friends?:

I sit and think, friends? Is this what we've gotten too. I don't know if I can handle being his friend and if he can really handle being mine.

:I hate you Jr. I swear I do. You just don't get this shit.: I text back.

Baby daddy: Just be patient with me baby girl. I'll right all my wrongs:

:Whatever save all that sap shit for yo bitch:

Baby Daddy: Yall gotta chill with all this Bitch shit:

:Man fuck her.. I'm just calling shit like I see it:

Baby Daddy: Smh. When yo next appointment?:

:The 20th to see my regular doctor and the 21st to see my baby doctor:

Baby Daddy: Our baby:

:Like I said my baby. Don't you have a bitch to tend too? You might wanna stop texting me and go talk to her:

Baby Daddy: Man chill out. She sleep anyway:

:That's nice:

Baby Daddy:Do you love me Cay?:

:What the fuck Jr?:

Baby Daddy:Just answer the question:

:Maybe later I'm tired. I'll talk to you tomorrow. Good night ugly.:

Baby Daddy: Lol. You funny. Good night Cay.: