If Loving You Is Wrong

Tatyanna

"Come on Taty." Jr yells. "I'm coming, stop rushing me." I grab my bag and walk out of the room. "You look nice." "See beauty takes time." "Your already beautiful I don't know what you were in there doing taking forever." "Okay Jr lets go."

We arrive at the Bistro and go take our seats. "So how did your day go?" I ask him. After our blow out about his little friend I've just simply been trying to keep the peace between us. "It was good laid down a few tracks and stop by to see Cay and then came to the house." "Oh... That's cool." "How was your day?" "It was good. Same old stuff with class." "How is your salon search coming?" "I have seen a few spaces I liked but nothing definite yet."

"That's what's up. I'm glad you trying to do something you love." "Thank you. I'll be sure to mention you in my acceptance speech." He raises his eyebrow, "Acceptance speech for what?" "Being the baddest hairstylist in the game." I say laughing. But I'm serious I have goals I'm trying to meet and doing it big in my own shop is on that list of goals. "Do ya thang baby." "As soon as I make it into my own shop, ya baby mama can be my first client." "Chill ma."

"I'm just saying I don't know what she had going on with her hair the other day." "It was a messy bun." I roll my eyes, "If you say so Jr." "Why must one always have something to say about the other?" "I really could honestly care less what that bitch has to think." "Chill with this damn bitch word." "Why are you defending her?" "What do you want me to do Taty?"

"I don't want you to do anything. What you shouldn't have done though was get a petty ass bitch pregnant." So much for trying to keep it peaceful. He just doesn't understand this shit. I expect my man to be my man only. But no I have to share him with her all because he decided to be a dumb ass and knock her up. If it's even his damn baby. She may have been claiming she was a virgin but people lie damn everyday.

"I said I'm sorry a thousand fucking times for that and chill with the bitch word... Believe me it was never in my plans for any of this to happen." "What you mean Jr? You didn't expect for ya ass to get caught?" "No that's not what I mean Taty." "Well what do you mean Jr? Please do share."

"I didn't expect to fall for her, I didn't expect either one of you to get hurt, I didn't expect her to end up pregnant, I didn't expect to be in the middle of you two but that's just the way the dice rolled and in life you can't roll the shit again. You take what you get and keep moving."

"Okay Jr." That's all I'm saying. I'm so over this, over this conversation and that bitch. He might go cater to her every whim but I see past all that shit. Jr ass may be fooled but not Tatyanna. We finish eating and head back to my place.

After showering I leave out and see Jr is laying on the bed. I go lay on him. "I really didn't mean for any of this to happen Taty." "Do you tell her that Jr?" I ask. It's easy as hell to tell me the shit I want to hear but what he is telling her. "I have before but it didn't go over so well." He says laughing. "I could imagine." "But don't get me wrong I'm not regretting it. It just wasn't planned. I'm happy about my first child." "You should make sure it's yours first before you go getting too happy." "Taty I thought we already discussed this."

"Jr I'm just saying. How do you know she isn't lying?" "Cay has no reason to lie to me." "Just like I assumed you would never lie to me." "Why you had to go there?" "I'm just making my point." I say rolling my eyes. He should be happy he's getting this far and I'm still laying right here. "She's not like that Taty." "Whatever Jr." "Can we drop this discussion?" "Your the one who brought it up but okay."

I turn on the tv and go to the movie channels. Love and Basketball was on. "Minnie said this movie reminds her of us." "How so?" "Just their bond with each other. You can truly tell they love each other." "I really do. I love you." He says. "I love you too Jr."

I wake to Jr's phone going off in middle of the night. He moves his arms from around me, "Hello?"...What normal people do at 3 in the morning. You okay?.... um what?" He laughs, "Cay what ima do with you?" I roll my eyes, what the fuck does she want at this time of the damn hour. "I'll be there in 10.... No problem baby.... You carrying mine so same thing.... Alright." They hang up.

"Baby huh?" I ask. "It just slipped." "What the fuck ever Jr." "What you bugging for?" "What does she want a 3 in the fucking morning?" "Some donuts." "Jr we've got to be kidding me." "Taty-" "Save whatever lil bullshit excuse and go to her." He sighs, "I'll be back." "Sure." He kisses my cheek and leaves out.

I just don't understand why me? I had him all to my self and shit was going good. Why the fuck did she have to get pregnant by my fucking man out of the all the niggas in the world, Jr Carter was the lucky fucking winner. I can't stand her and the fact that she has Jr ass wrapped around her fucking finger. I wish Jr never met her ass. I feel tears swelling in my eyes. I roll over and try to go to sleep.

I manage to go to back to sleep until my phone starts ringing. "Hello?" I say answering. I can hear his little hoe talking, "Let's be honest I probably wouldn't even be giving you the time of time if I wasn't pregnant. As for your heart, a piece doesn't mean shit when you thought you use to own it all."

Sorry to break it her but I had that shit first and still got it... "I know Cay, I'm sorry." I know this bitch is not crying... She's so fucking dramatic for no damn reason. "Jr you don't know what it's like being in my position." Please cry me fucking river! What the fuck does she mean understand her position please. "Stupid Bitch."

"What the fuck?" He finally puts the phone go his fucking ear. "Jr get your bitch..The nerve of this hoe." I hear his little bitch in the background say. "Who the fuck is she calling a hoe?!" I ask, she has shit twisted calling me a hoe. I'm far from that. He sighs,"What the fuck Taty?..... Wait Cay... I'll see you when I get back Taty.." "Jr if you hang up on me for that bitch you can stay over there with her ass." He hangs up the phone.

That's it. I wipe my tears from my eyes. I grab his duffle bag and pack his shit up. I'm not about to be put on the fucking back burner for this hoe. Fuck all of that shit. I'm sitting this shit out the fucking door. I don't have anything to say to his trifling ass!

I sit his bag outside the door and lock the door. A few minutes later I hear him banging on the door. "Man Taty come on! ... It's too early in the fucking morning for this shit.... Taty!" I put in my ear plugs and go to sleep.

I wake up around 9 and go do my morning routines. I finish getting dressed and head out into the kitchen for breakfast. I call Minnie and see what's she's up too. "I've missed you best friend." I say to her. "Whatever yo ass been chilling with Jr." "Don't even go there right now."

"What y'all fighting about now?" "What else? That fucking bitch he calls a baby mama." "Damn man I'm really tired of this bitch. Every since her ass came into the picture she been fucking shit up. I worked hard to get y'all asses together." Minnie says. "I can't stand that hoe either...." We finish talking and then hang up.

It's a knock at the door. I go open it and it's Jr with flowers and chocolate. "Taty I'm sorry." "Jr-" "No let me finish... I can't keep going back and forth between you and Casha. I'm just trying to keep both of y'all happy. If one ain't tripping the other is. I don't know what y'all expect a nigga to do. I'm tied of this shit." He says tearing up. I feel myself tearing up, I grab his hand and pull him inside.