If Loving You Is Wrong

Casha

I wake up in the middle of the night, hungry. I grab my bags. I cut my tv on and look through the bags and it's nothing I want in them.

I call Jr, "Hello?" He answers sounding half sleep. "What are you doing?" "What normal people do at 3 in the morning. You okay?" "Yeah. But um-" "Um what?" "I want some donuts from Krispy Kreme." He laughs, "Cay what ima do with you?" I laugh, "Ion know." "I'll be there in 10." "Thank you Jr." "No problem baby." "Not your baby but alright." "You carrying mine so same thing." "I guess but okay. Let me put some clothes on." "Alright." We hang up.

10 minutes later Jr pulls up outside. "Morning Sunshine." I say getting in the car. "That shit still sounds wrong Cay." I laugh. "Seat beat." "Damn let me get in first Jr." "I'm just saying Cay." "I'm just saying Jr."

We get to Krispy Creme and the hot light was on yes! I offer Jr one but he declines. He is missing out on this delicious ass donut.

We get back in the car. "You know Taty was hot I was leaving at 3 in the morning for you?" "You're telling me why?" I ask nonchalantly. I don't give a damn on how she feels. His face scrunches up "Because Cay I don't do this shit for just anybody.!" He says looking frustrated. "Don't fucking yell at me Jr. I swear to God I still don't understand this shit. You don't fucking get it! This is why I rather keep shit to myself, I feel like I'm talking to fucking brick wall... You want to know if I still love you Jr? Yes, yes I fucking do. But it doesn't mean shit because in your own words you chose her."

He pulls up in Rico's driveway. "You still gotta piece of my heart and my seed." "Let's be honest I probably wouldn't even be giving you the time of day if I wasn't pregnant. As for your heart, a piece doesn't mean shit when you thought you use to own it all." "I know Cay, I'm sorry." He says pulling me into him. This emotional shit is not what's up, I let my tears fall. "Jr you don't know what it's like being in my position." He doesn't say anything.

"Stupid bitch." "What the fuck?" He looks at his phone and sees Taty picture. This hoe makes my fucking blood boil, "Jr get your bitch...The nerve of this hoe." He sighs,"What the fuck Taty?" He says putting the phone to his ear. "Bye Jr." I say opening the door. "Wait Cay... I'll see you when I get back Taty.." He hangs up the phone. "I see you haven't took off the necklace." I look at my neck, "Your right, do you want it back? It doesn't mean shit anymore." "That tongue can be so venomous Cay." "What's new?" He looks at me, "I love you Cay." I sigh and close my eyes, "I love you too Jr."

I get out carrying my box inside. I open up the door and the light cuts on scarring me half to death. "Where you been Cay?" Rico asks. "I went to just donuts with Jr.. Why you creeping?" "I looked in your room to check on you but yo ass wasn't there. Don't leave with out letting someone know." "Rico it's 3 in the morning. Y'all was sleep." "Still Cay." "Alright I got you next time." "You and Jr good?" "Yup." I say going into my room and shutting my door.

I lay down. I roll my eyes when the thought of Taty pops in my head. I don't know what the fuck that bitch problem was but Jr better get it in check before I do. I start dozing off to sleep until my phone vibrates. Jr texts me, Baby Daddy: I made it home. Sweet dreams Cay:

My phone rings waking me up its 6:30 in the morning "Hello. Pregnant woman trying to sleep here. How may I help you?" "Come open the door for me." I look down at the name on the phone "Jr?" "Yeah." I get up, "Hold on." I go to the front door and let him in. "What are you doing here?" I see he has some clothes and a bag in his hand.

We walk into the living room and sit on the sofa. He looks mad, sad, frustrated, annoyed, all in one. "What happen?" "I'm sick of this shit with yall." "Don't put it as a y'all. I haven't done anything." "You ain't innocent. Taty put me out." "Damn. For what?" "Man honestly you and me and this whole baby situation." I was smiling on the inside. "Grow up Cay." He says as if he was reading my thoughts.

I laugh,"Man I don't have nothing nice to say so ima keep it to myself." "Finally somebody talking sense." He says intertwining one of my hands with his and rubs on my stomach with his other. "I'm surprised you ain't snatched your hand away." "Sometimes you just have to let things be and I'm tired of going through the motions with you." "The feeling is mutual." "Uhm mhm."

"Did you eat all them donuts?" "Um yeah, you should've got one when I offered earlier." "Greedy ass." "Blame my child. I mean our child." "That's fucking right." I lean back and lay on him. He looks at me sideways for a minute and then throws a blanket over the both of us. He wraps his arms around me. He's so warm. It feels like old times.

"How you think we gone be as parents?" He asks. "Good as long as we're getting along." "True that." "On some real stuff tho Jr.. I really don't like your girlfriend and I don't want her anywhere near my child." "I hear you Cay." He starts playing with my hair. I guess I fall asleep because when I open my eyes I see Rico looking at my me.

"Hell must of froze over." "Shut up." He takes a picture and then shows it to me. I can admit we do cute laid up. Jr's still knocked out. "Okay bye Rico I'm going back to sleep." "Yeah yeah , wait till is show Keysha." He says leaving out.

I fall back asleep. This time waking up I smell breakfast. Jr comes in with a tray, "Good morning beautiful." "Good morning." "Breakfast is served." He says putting the plate in front of me. "Thank you ugly.... You aren't eating?" I ask biting into the bacon. "Nah... I gotta take care of some business." "With your girl?" I ask already knowing the answer. "Her too." I roll my eyes, "Uhmkay well the night was nice." "Why do you do that?" "Do what Jr?" "Try to brush everything off." "What else would you like me to do Jr?" "Nothing Cay. I'll call you later." "Alright." He leaves out.