to the moon and to saturn♡ (Taylor and Daughter)

cigarettes

requested by Xaolife

age: 15
setting: rhode island

HEYYY
(don't come at me i know how short this one is, im so sorry😭)

idk, this one could be considered triggering, but like, the warning is basically in the title

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Taylor paced back and forth in Y/n's room. She was angry, worried, and disappointed all at the same time, as she clutched a pack of cigarettes that she had found hidden in her daughter's bedroom.

"Mum?" Y/n said, opening the door to her bedroom. She was in a pretty good mood, but her smile dropped as soon as she saw what Taylor was holding in her hand.

Her eyes widened, and she swallowed thickly. "Shit," She thought to herself. "Holy fucking shit." She dropped her backpack off of her shoulder, letting it drop carelessly to the floor.

Y/n stood silently, her eyes cast down, fidgeting nervously with her hands. The air in the room was heavy, charged with unspoken emotions as Taylor gazed at her daughter, waiting for an explanation.

"Y/n. Marjorie. Swift," Taylor said, her voice rigid and tinged with bitterness, "Can you please explain to me why I found these in your room?"

Y/n swallowed hard, her voice barely above a whisper, "I...I'm sorry, Mom. I didn't mean for you to find out this way."

Taylor's frustration intensified, her voice growing sharp and loud. "Sorry isn't going to cut it, Y/n. Smoking is not only dangerous but also illegal for someone your age. Do you understand the consequences you could be facing? Did you ever, just once, actually listen to the health risk factors of smoking?"

Tears welled up in Y/n's eyes as she met her mother's disapproving gaze. "I know it's wrong, Mum. I'm sorry, but I've been feeling so overwhelmed lately, and it just helps me cope..."

"Overwhelmed?!" Taylor yelled and chuckled sarcastically. "Oh please, I serve you everything you could ever need on a sliver platter. You don't know what being overwhelmed is! I mean, how did you even get these?"

Y/n bit her lip, and decided to ignore what Taylor had just said. "Harlow..." She mumbled, just above a whisper.

"Of-fucking-course you got them from Harlow." Taylor said through gritted teeth. "I knew that girl was trouble, she shouldn't have made you sm-"

"I was the one who decided to actually smoke them, Mum," Y/n tried to explain "I asked her to give them to me, and she kept telling me no. And so I stole them from her bag. I knew what I was doing."

"So why the fuck would you smoke them?"

"So I can feel something for once!" Y/n yelled out, louder than she had ever before.

Taylor's eyes widened at the volume of her daughter, and she felt herself flinch back. Her heart shattered into a million different pieces.

"Y/n..." Taylor's anger softened slightly, her tone more compassionate than before. She walked over to Y/n and grabbed her hand. "Sweetheart, I understand that life can be tough, but turning to smoking isn't the answer. It will only make things worse in the long run. There are healthier ways to cope." Taylor put her hand on the girl's shoulder.

Y/n looked up at her mother, shook of the hand, her voice filled with frustration and desperation. "You don't understand, Mum! I don't feel anything anymore, at least anything other than hurt."

Taylor's heart sank as her daughter's words pierced through her defenses. She took a step closer, her voice dropping to a regretful whisper. "Oh, sweetheart, I wish I could shield you from all the pain. But there's so many other ways you could've gone about this. Smoking should never have even be considered."

Y/n's tears began to stream down her face. The anger was replaced by a mix of frustration and guilt. "I'm sorry, Mum. I wasn't thinking straight."

Taylor's heart softened, and she reached out to hold Y/n's trembling hands. "I'm here for you, Y/n, through thick and thin. We'll navigate this together, but you need to promise me to let me in, to communicate with me. I can't help if I don't know what you're going through."

Y/n nodded, tears mingling with relief and gratitude. "I promise, Mum. I'll try to do better. I love you, and I never want to disappoint you."

Taylor pulled Y/n into a tight embrace, her voice filled with warmth and reassurance. "I love you too, sweetheart. We'll get through this, one step at a time, alright?"

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A/N:

I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYED THATTT
i know i know, it's really short and y'all deserve more, but ive been so unproductive recently 🤩🤩

the next chapter tho, im planning for it to be some major angst

but anyways, feel free to rant or just tell me about your life rn in the comments bc im so bored 😜😜

love you lots and lots and lots

byeee <3