Always Running (MATURE CONTENT)

CHAPTER 4

ANGER. It was a feeling she was well acquainted with, in fact anger and she were very close. She had been angry for most of her life and now she was pissed. Life had not been kind or fair to her, yet she would be a fool if she were to blame anyone else other than herself. It was she who had chosen to believe in him. It was she who had chosen to stay with him. It all boiled down to her and how she had screwed up her own life and no one else. Sure, there had been catalysts that had steered her in the direction she had taken, however, she had taken the road and she had hit pothole after pothole until she had fallen into the darkest abyss, she had ever known possible.

CHOICES. People made choices day in and day out without even thinking about their ramifications in the long run. They just wanted to get from point A to point B as quickly and as painlessly as possible; for Nessa, choices had been limited and she had chosen what she had been presented with and one of those choices had been him. It hadn't been the right choice. It had been the only choice that had gotten her out of the hell she lived being with her mother.

Nessa made her way to the nearest bus stop and waited patiently for the bus to arrive. She had to find lodgings for the night and her options were becoming limited now. She would have to find a place to stay soon, or she would start calling attention to herself by motel hopping, she was bound to end up in the same motel eventually and that would be a disaster.

She climbed on the bus and paid her fare and took the seat closest to the front as usual. She rode the route for about twenty minutes before she decided to get off and walk around. She had to find a way to live her life, not just survive it.

JUSTIN MEADOWS. That name was as scary as things got for Nessa. She had loved him, or she thought she had at the time. Now she knew better. Back then she had needed a way out and he had offered her an easy life and easy way out of her house where things had been so bad, she hadn't thought twice about what she was getting herself into. Justin had been a very charming and very handsome man. He had swept her off her feet with sweet words and money.

Having grown up with a mother that gave priority to her addictions over her children being fed had made the choice to go with Justin that much easier. He had promised her the moon and he had made good on his promise... for about a minute before turning into the violent bastard that he really was and probably would always be.

SEX. It had been sweet and gentle at first. He would make sure he pleasured her and made her orgasm first then he would worry about himself. Nessa had thought that she had been lucky. As the weeks progressed so did Justin's character... his true character. He became volatile and abusive for the silliest things and the sex started to get rougher and rougher until he practically raped her every time. Nessa still remembered the last time Justin had gotten his hands on her. She had been sleeping and had been woken up with Justin pulling her covers down and ripping her clothing off like a crazed animal. He had taken her hard over and over again while hitting and choking her until she nearly passed out. When he had gotten off her, she had thought that her torture had been over, instead he flipped her on her stomach and lifted her hips up and rammed himself inside her without any warning, making her cry out in savage pain as he raped her and tore her. He had taken turns taking her from behind and then flipping her over once again and taking her with such force that he had ripped her up enough to where he had sobered and realized what he had done to her. He had rushed her to the hospital claiming that he had come home and found her like that.

The police had been called due to the fact that it had been a violent sex crime, and the hospital was bound by law to notify the authorities when such a crime came to their knowledge. After hours of questions from the police, Nessa knew that she could never say what had really happened...the police were in Justin's pocket.