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Chapter 47 --- One Last Step Before Forever

Chapter 47

One Last Step Before Forever

Many years have passed, still I can't forget you. Only if I told you I love you. Only if I didn't pushed you away. Only if I listened to your explanations, this wouldn't have happened. It's true. I dug my own graveyard. I spit on my own face. I'm the maker of my own problems.

I always do things that I know I'll suffer in the end.

And now that you're gone, and I'm left alone here, I don't know what to do.

I was lifeless when you left.

I'll be praying for you until the last day of my life.

Your name.

Your name will be the last word I'll be saying in my last breath.

Now that I'm almost done saying this, I'll take this privilege to say that one thing you wished I've said before.

I love you.

I always have and I always will.

The End

I wiped the tears that escaped my eyes after reading the book, Lucas gave me. It's entitled "The Girl Who Never Said I Love You."

I guess it's true. Nasa huli ang pagsisisi.

In the book, the guy killed himself because the girl rejected him. The reason why she rejected him was because she caught the guy sleeping with a different woman. If only she knew that the guy was just a victim. If only she let the guy explain. What's worse is that she never said she loves the guy. In the book, she was the girl who never said I love you.

Napatingin ako kay Zayn nang marinig ko siyang umungot at sabihin ang pangalan ko. Napangiti ako. Ang lalim lalim ng tulog niya pero hanggang sa pagtulog niya, ako pa din ang bukambibig niya.

Nilapag ko ang libro na kakatapos ko lang basahin at nahiga paside. Nandito kami sa condo niya. Napagod siya from work kasi may restaurant na rin pala si Zayn dito sa Pilipinas. After ng work ko, dito na ako dumeretso.

I traced Zayn's sleeping face carefully. I suddenly remembered what happened few weeks ago.

The real fake accident thing.

I really thought I lost him. I was crying so hard that time when I saw the nurse cover Zayn's head with the hospital blanket.

I approached Zayn with a heavy feet and a heavy a heart. It was as if the time stood still --- my life stood still. Parang pati pagtibok ng puso ko tumigil na din.

I stopped on track when I approached his bed. Hesitantly, I touched his covered head, traced it down to his... chest?

Wait.

Can they cover a body with a heart still beating.

Nilapat ko ang tenga ko sa dibdib niya and when I confirmed it, hinampas ko ang katawan niya.

"Aray!" He yelled in pain and remove the blanket on his bed.

"Asshole! Alam mo ba kung gaano mo ko pinag alala?! Damn you, Zayn! Damn you!" I said while crying. Fck. I'm happy and annoyed! Hindi ko na maintindihan ang sarili ko! Masaya ako na buhay siya pero naiinis ako kasi pinagtripan ako!

"Aray! Babe, masakit! Tama na!"

Hinawakan niya ang dalawang kamay ko na ipinanghahampas ko sa kanya kaya napatigil ako sa ginagawa ko.