Let's Flip a Coin. Heads, "You're Mine". Tails, "I'm Yours"

Chapter 17 --- Let's Try

Chapter 17

Let's Try

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The silence almost eat us while I'm hugging him. I was quiet the whole time. Zayn try to turn around to look at me but I always tighten my hug on him.

"Anong problema, babe?"

*silence*

"Tell me. Kinakabahan ako sa'yo. What's wrong?" - he said, trying to face me but then again, I just tighten my hug on him.

Kinakabahan akong magsalita. Hindi ko alam kung paano mag-uumpisa. But then, naisip ko, kahit anong mangyari, kahit ano pa ang isagot nya sa itatanong ko, dapat ko yun tanggapin.

"Bab---"

"Do you really love me?" - nervously, trembling and scared but I tried to asked him.

I felt his body stiffen. I gave him time to recover because I thought he was just shocked of my out of the blue question. But..

A few minutes already passed but he still didn't answer me.

"So you don't love me?"

I want to ask him this but I'm scared that he might gain his senses back and answer me. An answer that may hurt me.

"So our relationship is just a game? Just a game of flipping a stupid coin? Is that it?"

Gusto kong magalit. Gusto ko syang sigawan. Pero mas nangingibabaw pa din yung sakit. He's sudden silence is killing me. I know, any moment now, these traitor tears will fall because of the pain I'm feeling. Mas pipiliin kong wag silang punasan. I will let them fall and flow down to my cheeks rather than wipe them. Why?

Because it's better to let my cheeks be stained with my tears rather than let go of this hug.

I admit it. I like him. Pero hanggang dun lang at mabuti na lang ay hanggang dun lang kasi mas masakit kung natutunan ko sya agad mahalin. Sobrang sakit.

I don't want to let go but his silence makes me want to. Should I? Can I?

*sob*

I can't do this any longer. Nagmumukha na akong tangang nakayakap sa lalaking hindi naman pala talaga ako mahal. So I decided to let him go.

I let him go slowly, treasuring the time while hugging him.

Ang tanga ko talaga para isipin na pipigilan nya akong bumitaw sa kanya. Pero hindi.. hindi nya ako pinigilan.

I started to walk away but then...

He grabbed my arm and pulled me closer to him then hugged me.