Team Sparia

Chapter 24 - "I should be okay."

Spencer's POV
I was lying on the couch not really paying attention when the doorbell rang. "Aria!" I shout since she was in the next room.
"What?" She yells back but I can hear the amusement in her voice.
"Can you get the door?" I ask back loudly. She appears in the doorway of the bedroom rolling her eyes in disbelief at me.
"Sure because I'm closer." She says walking past me.
"Love you!" I call back to her and even though I can't see her I'm sure she's either smiling or smiling and flipping me off. I hear Aria open the door and her greet Hanna and Emily.
"Hey Spence." I hear Hanna say and I give her a wave over the back of the couch not even bothering to sit up or anything.
"Sorry about her, she's being extra lazy today." I hear Aria mutter.
"I can hear you." I reply.
"I'm sure you can." Aria retorts in a sassy tone. I sit up ignoring the dull pain in my side as I do so. My wound had pretty much healed after the whole dream incident and I hadn't had another nightmare, yet. I wasn't completely sure what Emily and I had planned but I'm sure we'd come up with something.

We talked for a little while until Aria and Hanna left to go do whatever they were doing together leaving Emily and I. "Are you okay?" Emily asks immediately.
"What?" I ask not sure where the sudden question had come from. "I'm fine." Emily gives me a look like she doesn't quite believe me.
"I promise Em, if something was wrong, I would tell you." She leans back against the couch in defeat. What was that about? Did I not look okay? I stand up and cross into the kitchen grabbing the bottle of whiskey that Aria and I had hidden behind the glasses at the back of the cupboard.
"Alcohol really?" Emily asks in disbelief raising an eyebrow.
"Why not?" I ask screwing the lid off the bottle and taking a swig. I cringe at the sour taste, a sign that my tastebuds were trying to adjust to the bitter taste.
"It's one in the afternoon Spence. And you were confused as to why I was asking if you were okay." She looks at me and I can tell she doesn't believe me. I set the bottle on the middle of the coffee table and sit back down.
"I should be okay." I say hugging myself suddenly feeling awkward. "I mean Aria and I are engaged but I just feel... I don't know."
"You don't know?" Emily questions. It was too hard for me to explain to Emily but I knew she wasn't going to drop it.
"I just don't feel like me." I confess feeling frustrated about the topic.
"Spencer," Emily pauses pursing her lips. "I think Aria was right and you should go see a doctor or therapist." I sigh wanting to move on from this conversation. But, that's what Emily is like, her loyalty makes it impossible to shake off her concern which is usually a good quality but not when I wanted to avoid the subject.
"I'm fine Em." I reply patting the space beside me for her to come sit next to me. She obliges wrapping an arm around my shoulder in a comforting embrace. I rest my head on her shoulder enjoying spending time with one of my best friends. "I love you Em." I say smiling.
"I love you too Spencer." Emily replies looking at me with a small smile.

"Okay update on the dating situation?" I ask Emily curiously taking the bowl of popcorn from her. We had decided to stay in and watch a movie and then go out later. The movie was still playing in the background but neither of us were paying attention to it. The bottle of whiskey, that I had took out of the cupboard before, was still sat in the middle of the coffee table untouched. "I'm single." Emily shrugs like its no big deal. "Paige and I decided it would be best if we didn't date."
"I'm sorry." I say. I knew that Emily liked Paige a lot but I still thought the girl was a psycho.
"So I've made a decision about what we're going to do." Emily states, an excited smile on her face.
"Oh yeah?" I question raising my eyebrows in curiosity.
"Okay so you've never been to a gay bar have you?" Emily asks.
"No..." I reply already knowing what Emily was going to suggest.
"Then it's settled, that's where we're going." I was about to protest before Emily held a finger up signalling for me to be quiet for her to explain. "You found out you were gay then you went into a relationship with Aria. I think it's time you explore just how great being gay is." Emily grins at me and she looks so excited I can barely turn her down.
"Fine." I huff.
"Cheer up Spence, we throw the best parties." Emily grabs my wrists pulling me from my seating position. "Now let's get ready because you are not going to the club dressed like that." I allow her to drag me to my bedroom where I was sure she was going to tell me how to dress.

About an hour later after a whole scrub down, including shaving my legs since Emily claimed I looked like a yeti, we were ready to leave. I had curled my hair, put on a very short black dress and applied light make up but in the words that Emily had said I looked 'hot'. "Lets go!" Emily bustles me out the door. "We'll take a taxi so we can both drink." Emily suggests and I nod. I definitely wanted to drink so it was probably a good idea we got a cab. The cab ride was quite long since the club Emily was taking me to was on the outskirts of town. I'd never even heard of the place, it was some kind of secret gay club.

When, we got to the door I handed the bouncer my fake ID and he let me in with Emily close behind me. I go straight to the bar and order a shot of tequila. The pulse of the music had me swaying at the bar and Emily was laughing at me. "Spence I can see you want to dance." Emily says over the music raising her voice for me to hear.
"Maybe a little." I admit before downing another shot. I already had a light buzz and I'd only had two shots. Emily grabs my hand pulling me onto the dance floor and it's not long before we're engulfed in the thick crowd of bodies. We were surrounded with people all around us. I let myself loose and started to dance laughing and smiling with Emily. It felt good to get out, maybe I was a little stir crazy. The heat from the dance floor and the bodies on it was almost unbearable. I excused myself from Emily heading back to the bar with the hopes of getting even more drunk.

"Spencer?" I hear a voice ask, it obviously wasn't Emily. I look behind me to see Cassie standing there frowning at me as if she wasn't sure it was me.
"Cassie?" I ask back raising another shot before drinking that. I had to admit I was a little drunk now, so much so I wasn't certain I could walk straight. I look at the dance floor and see Emily dancing with a girl I didn't know but she looked like she was enjoying herself. Cassie sits beside me ordering two of what I was drinking. "I don't need company." I say turning my head to look at my childhood friend.
"I didn't say you did." Cassie replies sliding another shot towards me so I couldn't turn her down. "So what's a pretty girl like you doing here alone?" Cassie asks raising her eyebrows. I snort before I answer.
"I'm not alone. My friend is over there." I point to Emily who is still dancing with a mysterious girl.
"Oh," Cassie's eyes momentarily snap to Emily and back to me. "is that the girlfriend?"
"No, she's my friend." I say feeling a little agitated.
"Do you still have a girlfriend?" Cassie questions.
"Fiancé." I correct drinking the shot that Cassie had bought me. I could already feel the alcohol clouding my thoughts for me to make stupid mistakes with.
"Let's dance." Cassie nudges me gently wrapping her hand around my wrist. I didn't feel like dancing but I could see that she really wanted to and it's easy to convince a drunk Spencer to do something, than it is to convince a sober Spencer, at least, that's what I think and I should know since I am Spencer... Wow, I must be really drunk. Cassie leads me to the dance floor where I start to dance and laugh along with my old friend.

"You were cute when you were little." Cassie says grinning. I swallow another shot just adding to my drunkness. I was sure that Emily had left with that girl she had been dancing with leaving me alone with Cassie.
"I'm not cute now?" I ask sarcastically pushing myself upright. The room felt like it was spinning.
"No you're beautiful now there's a difference."
"You're just a huge flirt aren't you?" I ask laughing slightly. Cassie gives me a smile. I try to walk froward but trip over my own feet. Luckily, Cassie was there to catch me.
"Wow there Spencer, I think you've had enough." She says but by this point I'm feeling a little delirious and I'm not completely sure where I am.
"Not enough." I reply trying to stabilise myself. I wrap my arms around her neck to keep myself upright and Cassie leans her head back.
"You've definitely had enough." Cassie wraps her arms around my waist to steady me, her brow creased in worry. I groan in protest but Cassie just leads me out of the club. We were sitting down in the alleyway that ran down the side of the club talking and getting fresh air. "You feel better?" She questions.
"No." I reply and without thinking I pull Cassie's lips onto mine instantly deepening the kiss. Even in my drunken state I knew that the kiss wasn't right, it didn't feel right. This isn't Aria. What am I doing? I push Cassie off of me the alcohol still running in my veins and fuelling my stupid decisions and actions. Oh, crap.

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Heh, please don't kill me...

I thought my book was seriously lacking some Spemily. So what do y'all think? Do you think Spencer will tell Aria? Will Spencer even remember? I'll update soon.

P.S - Sorry for any grammar or spelling mistakes.