tw: chronic illness/pain, mentions of addiction
~ in my rhyming era?? also in my chronic illness era but that era is forever unfortunately ~
written on: january 16, 2024
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i don't remember the exact day the sickness came
but i remember what happened afterwards
day after day
tired all the time but
unable to sleep
and there was this urgent pain that seeped into the very fabric of my being
i tried every painkiller
and got hooked on quite a few
they didn't help my body but they quieted my brain
which rid me of a different sort of ache, it was almost better in a way
but eventually i had to stop
and the hurt was still there
i tried to accept it
or even ignore
but every night i found myself on the kitchen floor
screaming and crying
i don't want to be sick anymore, i don't want to be sick anymore
perhaps those late nights are the reason i don't believe in god
because no one has answered my pleas
the sickness lives on
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poetry by jungenwunder
Poetrymy old stuff is pretty bad but my newer stuff is much better, please pay attention to when it was written and feel free to start at the end of the book!! i will have trigger warnings at the beginning of chapters when necessary. stay safe, i love you.
