tw: references to healthcare, illness, body dysmorphia
~i've been researching for my final dance paper and presentation, lots of poetic inspiration~
written on: march 7, 2024
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to sit in a doctor's office and be talked at
understand the lab values
look at the body in front of you and say i don't know how you're alive
the body in front of you – a body that does not work
to run at the park
circles and circles of disobedience
look at the body in front of you, putting one broken leg in front of the other
the body in front of you – a body that is frail
to stand at the mirror
reflections of light becoming hell
look at the body in front of you, staring back
the body in front of you – a body that takes up too much space
to collapse in a high school bathroom
eyes overtaken by darkness, ears hearing the rush of so many lost years
no ability to look at the body in front of you
the body in front of you – a body that has given up
to lie on the floor
feel the body press against the wood
look at the body in front of you, feeling the wood press back
the body in front of you – a body that is supported, unfamiliar
to move the arms
then the legs
look at the body in front of you, moving torso and pelvis and sidebody and back and shoulder, moving every little aching piece
the body in front of you – a body that is battered but unyielding
to push up onto the feet
flying like birds outside the window
look at the body in front of you, flowing like the river that runs beneath
the body in front of you – a body that wants to know effervescence
to see the reflections in the glass
finally undistorted
look at the body in front of you, a body that survived
the body in front of you – a body that dances
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poetry by jungenwunder
Poetrymy old stuff is pretty bad but my newer stuff is much better, please pay attention to when it was written and feel free to start at the end of the book!! i will have trigger warnings at the beginning of chapters when necessary. stay safe, i love you.
