tw: mild mentions of sexism, gender dysphoria, body dysmorphia, transphobia
~once again missing musical theatre even though it was very traumatic for me as a queer (especially trans) person, theatre at my university is much better, hoping to get back into it soon~
written on: march 5, 2024
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the quick change is methodical, well-practiced but
still rushed every time
still bordering on mere madness
strip off your puffy gown and heels
step into a silk slip and corset and of course another pair of heels
you had to learn to dance in them even if you didn't see the appeal
fix your wig
change your lipstick
and put on a smile
time to give them a show
make it worth their cash and their while
back in place for the next dance number
it is raunchy as always but what can be done
you are a chorus girl after all and
chorus girls should know how to have fun
but when the show is over and
the mirror is screaming at you
your body, your makeup, your hair, your costume is all wrong
it's like you know color exists but you can't quite recognize the hues
there is no place for you
no in-between
you are an alto or a soprano, a leading lady or a chorus girl
pick your own smokescreen
but how can it be, how can it be
the chorus girl is not a girl
as long as you remain a chorus girl, you will never be truly free
YOU ARE READING
poetry by jungenwunder
Poesiamy old stuff is pretty bad but my newer stuff is much better, please pay attention to when it was written and feel free to start at the end of the book!! i will have trigger warnings at the beginning of chapters when necessary. stay safe, i love you.
