tw: self harm, cutting, blood
~i just finished having an anxiety attack about my chem homework and i feel so fucking stupid, please ask for help if you need help (for mental health issues and for chemistry homework issues)~
written on: october 22, 2023
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a quarter against my forearm
cold and calming
i drag it across my skin
horizontal cries for help
the raised edges leave behind blushing marks
so close but so far from what i want
i can pretend it is what i need in that moment
cold and calming
and sharp and red
dripping
drippin
drippi
dripp
drip
dri
dr
don't think like that
you can't think like that if you want to get better
but when i close my eyes it's there
cold and calming
dripping down my forearms into the sink
i wrap and tie imaginary bandages
around imaginary cuts
and pull my sleeves down to my fingertips
it makes me feel cold and calm but it's not as good as the real thing
nothing will ever make me feel as cold and calm as the real thing
YOU ARE READING
poetry by jungenwunder
Poesíamy old stuff is pretty bad but my newer stuff is much better, please pay attention to when it was written and feel free to start at the end of the book!! i will have trigger warnings at the beginning of chapters when necessary. stay safe, i love you.
