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"you got hella stuff lil nigga." Jeremiah said as we finished up unpacking my last box. I smiled and laughed—I still couldn't find words to say to him.
It wasn't that I was necessarily scared of him—I always do this with new people I meet (the little amount I have met over the course of my life)—it's just my mind being way to apprehensive to actually form a cohesive sentence that doesn't make me sound dumb.
so really I haven't said a word to this extremely helpful man in the five hours he's been speaking to me.
"you know you can talk right?" He said out of the blue.
shit.
My mouth fell agape and I just stared at him—what the hell did he want me to say?
"cmon man, we're roommates now, we gotta get to know each other." He insisted—again, I just stared.
"okay how about this, tell me where you from lil bro," He said.
My mind cranked a bit while trying to form a sentence, and I came up with a small one, "new york." I said quietly.
"good, what's it like there?" He asked further.
damn is this 73 questions?
"it's fine, nothing too big happened with me there." I explained. His silence scared me because I probably wasn't being brazen enough for his standard.
I can't explain why I'm like this. All he wants is for me to open up about basic things and I just can't.
There was a knock on the door and he went to go see who it was. While he did that I internally slapped the hell out of myself for being so shy.
"wassup, you chief's right?" I heard him talking to someone.
what an odd way to refer to someone.
"yea, Luca." The voice on the other side of the door said. "is Angelo here?" He asked Jeremiah.
Jeremiah looked back at me and spoke, "yeah he over there," He moved out the way so Luca could walk in.
"hey angelo," He smiled at me. I looked at Jeremiah briefly who seemed like he was eager to hear me speak—so instead I just waved at him.
that jeremiah guy is very ...
"i was gonna ask if you wanted to detour around campus—You know so we could get to know each other better while learning the place more!" He said with a big smile. He had perfect teeth so it wasn't like his smile was annoying.
I just shrugged and he nodded and walked out the room.
was i supposed to follow—
"uh...are you coming?" Luca said peeking back into the room.
dumbass.
I scurried past Jeremiah who watched me closely.
Sometimes I wonder if when God made me—be purposely set me up to become a social reject who's father just so happens to be a complete maniac.
