Y/n Diaz, the new rookie

i can't eat.

⚠️TW: eating disorder, mention of self-harm⚠️

you and Lucy wake up to your alarms and get up
L: "i'm glad i stayed over last night"
Y: "i'm glad you did too" you smile
L: "i'm gonna go shower i'll be back"
Y: "okay me too."
you go turn on your shower and take your clothes off from last night and stare down at all the cuts you made and start to cry
"god why did i do this to myself"
you get in the shower and wash your body and hair. you get out and change into some black leggings and i long sleeved crop top. you do your makeup and put your hair in a ponytail, you then walk to the kitchen and make some coffee for you and Lucy
L: "thanks for the coffee!"
Y: "no problem. can we stop at starbucks to get something to eat?"
L: "yeah of course!"
you finish your coffee and walk down to Lucy's car and drive to starbucks. you order a grande strawberry açai and a croissant. Lucy orders the same
L: "thanks for buying my stuff, you didn't have to."
Y: "i really did, you've helped me so much in the past few days Lucy."
L: "that's what i'm here for" she smiles and you guys get in the car. once you arrive at the station you only have 5 minutes until roll call so you quickly go to the change room and get in your uniform.
Grey: "alright everybody settle down."
everyone goes silent and sits down.
Grey: "alright today we're switching up our TO's"
all the rookies groan not wanting to get Tim
Grey: "alright, Bradford you get Diaz. Lopez you get West. and Bishop you get Chen. that's it get going."
T: "go get the war bags boot."
Y: "yes sir."
god why is he such a bitch. Lucy is lucky she doesn't have him today after what happened last night.
*you put the war bags in the back of the shop and get in the passenger seat*
T: "how are you? after you know."
Y: "i'm fine. can we not talk about this. i don't want anyone to treat me differently."
T: "okay but i treat my rookies hard so they learn."
Y: "fine with me."
T: "whatever you say."
*30 minutes later*
T: "BOOT I'VE BEEN SHOT WHERE ARE YOU?!"
Y: "i- uh-"
T: "and i'm dead."
Y: "w-what?"
T: "get out and walk."
Y: "um- okay.."
*10 minutes later*
T: "do you know where you are yet?"
Y: "yeah. corner of willow Drive.?"
T: "good get in."
Y: "i can keep walking."
T: "get in boot."
Y: ...
T: "don't make me come out there and drag you."
Y: "i'm fine to keep walking sir."
T: "GET IN THE DAMN SHOP BOOT."
Y: no thank you sir."
*13 minutes later*
T: "i'm going to drag you into this damn shop."
Y: "i said i'm fine walking."
*Tim gets out and drags you back to the shop*
Y: "get off me!!"
T: "then get in the shop."
Y: "god you really are a hard ass" you mumble
T: "what was that? get in."
Y: "fine."
T: "why did you want to walk?"
Y: "i like walking.."
T: "for 30 minutes straight in this heat?"
Y: "yeah."
* 3 hours later you guys go to lunch and only got a few minor calls*
L: "so hows Bradford?"
Y: "god don't even. i walked for 30 minutes."
J: "that's a long ass time. especially in this heat."
L: "a lot longer than i walked."
Y: "oh well i like walking."
Lucy and Jackson exchange a worried look to eachother
L: "what do you want i'm buying you food."
Y: "nothing please i'm not that hungry."
L: "are you sure Y/n? you only had a few bites of your croissant this morning.."
Y: "i'm fine Lucy." you snap at her
you walk off and sit in the shop and ask yourself if you should just sit in the shop or if you should go get food. you end up deciding to just sit in the shop until Tim comes back.
*10 minutes later*
T: "i brought you food."
Y: "not hungry.."
T: "bs. eat."
Y: "Tim i said i'm not fucking hungry plus i can't even bring myself to eat."
T: "eat. you can't just not eat. especially as a cop since you're chasing a lot of people."
Y: "fine."
*you eat on the way back to the station and when you get back you go to the bathroom and throw up what you ate*
"why. why do i do this." you whisper to yourself
Bishop: "are you okay?"
Y: "yeah just a stomach ache.."
B: "okay."
*you walk out of the stall and rinse your face with water and spot Lucy walking in*
L: "i'm sorry for earlier. i just want you to be okay Y/n."
Y: "i'm sorry for snapping at you, Tim is just getting on my nerves today."
L: "he gets on my nerves everyday."
Y: "lucky you!" you laugh
L: "oh so lucky." she laughs
*you walk out to see Tim talking to Angela*

Tim's POV:

A: "she'll be okay."
T: "she worries me though. when we got back she ran for the bathroom. i got her food and she ate it but i think she just threw it all up."
A: "poor girl, i really want her to get better."
Y: "you ready to go?"
T: "yeah, by Ang."
A: "bye"
*you guys walk to the shop*
T: "you okay? you look a bit pale."
Y: "i'm fine."
T: "okay." i sigh

Y/n's POV:

Dispatch: "7-Adam-07 we have a possible 2-11 in progress at 213 Wilshire Drive."
Y: "7-Adam-07 show us responding"
*Tim turns the lights and sirens on and speeds towards the location*
T: "let's go."
*you guys get inside and tackle the guy who is armed and turns out the gun was a fake*
T: "nice tackle. let's get him in the shop"
*you take the guy to the shop and go to the station, you process him and put him in a holding cell*
T: "nice job today. go change me, you Anglea and Lucy are going for drinks go tell Chen."
Y: "but-"
T: "no buts. you're coming."
*you walk to the change room and spot Lucy*
Y: "Bradford says we're going for drinks with him and Angela."
L: "lucky us."
Y: "so lucky." you guys laugh
A: "you ready to go?"
you jump because she just heard your conversation
Y: "you scared the shit out of me"
A: "good let's go."
*you and Lucy look at each other and shrug and follow her. you get in your car and follow them to the bar*
T: "first round on me."
Y: "sounds good."
bartender: "what can i get for you guys?"
T: "i'll take a beer please."
A: "i'll take two shots of tequila please"
Y: "two shots of tequila please."
L: "same here"
Bartender: "alright sounds good."
T: "jesus you guys are alcoholics"
A: "shut it." you guys all laugh at his comment
*the bartender comes back with your drinks and you guys drink them*
Y: "i should get going before i get too drunk"
T: "stay."
Y: "uhm okay.."
*you end up getting really drunk and decide to go home*
Y: "imm gonna go noww" you say sluring your words
T: "i can drive you home three home"
Y: "i think me and Lucy can just get an uber"
L: "yeah we can."
T: "okay bye."
*you and Lucy call for an uber, 10 minutes later it arrives and takes you home*
L: "we should go to bed"
Y: "yeah, ugh i'm gonna be so hungover tomorrow."
L: "yes you are."

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