Y/n Diaz, the new rookie

why me?

⚠️TW: rape, sexual assault, abuse, self-harm, eating disorder⚠️

you wake up in the morning and don't shower since you showered last night. you do your makeup and skip breakfast as per usual, you make some coffee and text Riley.

Riley

Y- hey what's the plan for tonight?
R- i was thinking Mikes for dinner?
Y- omg i love that place!
R- i thought you would, i mean who doesn't love it?
Y- literally, like if you don't then don't talk to me
R- exactly.
Y- i have to go to work now. what time we meeting up?
R- what time does your shift end?
Y- 4:45 is what time i should be done.
R- alright what about 5:30?
Y- sounds good. i'll meet you there!
R- alright bye!
Y- bye!

*you walk to your car smiling and get in and start driving to work, you get there and head to the change room*
L: "i heard you went on a little date last night!"
Y: "oh my god did Angela tell you?!"
A: "yes i did."
Y: "ughhh"
L: "i love that your getting back into dating"
Y: "yeah me too i guess i'm just scared he's gonna break my heart and then i'm gonna get worse."
A: "you'll do great Y/n i know it. he looked like a good guy!"
Y: "oh my god you were watching?"
A: "well obviously!"
L: "you guys are funny."
Y: "let's go to roll call"
*you sit down in roll call and grey explains that you'll be back with you original TO's and your happy about that because Tim can be a bitch sometimes. you go get the war bags and meet Angela in the shop*
A: "so, you excited for your date tonight?"
Y: "i'm excited but scared because we're going for dinner and i hate eating in front of new people that don't know about my eating disorder.."
A: "you'll be okay."
Y: "thanks."
*you get a few calls then go to lunch*
you don't get anything since your going to dinner tonight and have to eat.*
L: "you not going to eat anything?"
Y: "no i'm going on a date tonight so i wanna save my appetite.."
L: "alright."
A: "Diaz! come on!"
Y: "ughhh gotta go."
L: "Byeeee!
*you walk towards the shop and get in*
A: "not hungry?"
Y: "no i'm saving my appetite for dinner later."
A: "okay."
*3 and a half hours later and your shift is over. you're super excited for your date so you quickly change and head home to get ready. you decide to wear blue ripped jeans and a red long sleeve crop top. you head out the door after fixing your makeup and changing, you get to Mikes diner after a 10 minute drive and see Riley waiting outside*
R: "hey!"
Y: "hii!"
R: "let's go take a seat"
*you guys go inside and get seated, you look at the menu and decide to order a ceaser salad*
waitress: "what can i get for you guys?"
R: "i'll take a burger please."
Y: "i'll just take a ceaser salad please."
waitress: "coming right up!"
*10 minutes later the waitress comes back and give you your food*
R: "so, how was work today?"
Y: "it was pretty good. only some minor calls."
R: "that's boring" he laughs
Y: "you're telling me. i had to sit in the shop for 6 hours doing nothing."
R: "bet that was really boring" you guys laugh
Y: "trust me it was."
*you guys finish eating and you go to the washroom to throw up*
"why can't i keep food down. i'm trying to get better.."
*you walk out of the bathroom and back to your table*
R: "ready to go?"
Y: "where we going?"
R: "i was thinking back to my place and watch a movie maybe?"
Y: "that sounds fun, sure!"
*he drives you to his house*
R: "what do you wanna watch?"
Y: "anything is fine."
*he picks a movie that you actually like and starts to play it when his hand moves towards your thigh*
Y: "what are you doing?"
R: "nothing."
*you thought nothing of until his hand reached your thigh and started going towards your boobs*
Y: "Riley can you stop."
R: "no my love your body is so perfect i can't help myself."
*he starts to grab your boob before moving his hand down to your private*
Y: "stop!"
R: "no i'm going to keep going until I'm done."
*he starts to undo his jeans and pull them down and that's when he forces himself on top of you. after 3 hours of him raping you he finally stops and starts to hit you*
Y: "s-stop! please!"
R: "you're just making it harder for yourself! stop squirming!!"
*you stop squirming so he would stop hitting you and eventually he did. you had bruises all over your stomach and legs*
R: "go home."
Y: "o-okay" you say starting to tear up
*you walk home and when you get home you just break down and grab your blade out of your vanity and start cutting your thighs*
1 cut
2 cuts
3 cuts
4 cuts
5 cuts
you move to your left thigh
1 cut
2 cuts
3 cuts
4 cuts
5 cuts
you do 5 cuts on each leg and decide to shower to try and get his touch off of you.
"why me! why did he rape me!" you say sobbing
"what did i do to him?!" you say scrubbing at your leg really hard you scrub until your skin goes red.
when your done in the shower you just stand there staring at all of your bruises while crying you change into some sweats and decide to text Angela but not wanting to tell her made it harder to text her.

Angela ❤️

Angelaaaa-

-HOW WAS THE DATE!!?

Omg it was amazing.

-you better tell me all about it!

okay so basically, we went to Mikes diner and ate. then we went to his house to watch a movie.

-someone's in loveeee

shut up i am not.-

-bullshit.

i'm actually not. idk about him he's weird

-aww okay you guys were cute.

eh-

-okay go to sleep we have work tmr.

okay night-

-night!

*you put your phone down and start to cry knowing that you can't tell anyone what had just happened to you*

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