Y/n Diaz, the new rookie

i can't believe you

⚠️TW: self-harm, mentions of rape⚠️

you and Lucy have a few drinks before you leave and drive home. when you get home you just sit in your bathroom debating on whether you should cut yourself or just not and go to bed. your urges are getting worse and worse by the minute, you decide to call Angela and ask if you can go to her house.

*on the phone with Angela*
Y- Angela?
A- what's up?
Y- can- can i come over?
A- yeah of course? you want me to pick you up?
Y- yes please.
A- alright i'm on my way.
Y- thank you..

you hangup and just sit on your bathroom floor until you hear a knock at your door.

A: "hey, ready to go?"
Y: "umm is it okay if i stay the night?"
A: "yeah of course. go pack some things."
you tell her to come inside and wait whilst you go pack some of your overnight things. you finish packing and walk out of your room.
Y: "okay, i'm ready." you weakly smile
A: "alright let's go."
you both walk out of your house and out to Angela's car.
A: "what's going on?"
Y: "i had urges to-" she interrupts you
A: "i'm glad you called." she smiles and drives away from your house. when you get to her house you grab your bag out of the back seat and walk in behind Angela.
W: "hey Y/n."
Y: "hey Wesley."
A: "you want some dinner? we have some leftovers."
Y: "uh no thanks i had dinner with Lucy.." you lie
A: "alright."

Angela's POV:
i get out my phone and text Lucy to see if
Y/n is lying about having dinner with her.

Lucy Chen

hey did you have dinner with
Y/n? just wondering because
she said she had dinner with you.-

-we did not have dinner
together. we just went
out for drinks and then
we went home.

okay. thanks-

-anytime.

*i turn off my phone and go to Y/n on the couch*

Y/n's POV:
i see Angela walking towards me, i start to get nervous because she looks like she's about to tell me something
A: "Y/n."
Y: "uh yeah?"
A: "Lucy told me you didn't have dinner with her."
Y: "right.. uhh-"
A: "come on, you know you shouldn't lie to me."
Y: "i'm sorry."
W: "you want some dinner?"
Y: "i- i guess.."
Wesley gets you some of the leftovers they had and dishes up a plate for you
Y: "thanks.." you weakly smile
W: "no problem." he sits down with Angela
A: "so. i called Tim and yelled at him."
Y: "good. what did you say?"
A: "ready for this?"
Y: "oh yeah."
A: "okay so i said, you told her you never actually loved her!? wow Tim. i told her you were a good man. where the fuck did this come from?! and then he said, Angela can you stop nagging me about this? no i didn't love her but she was just so hot i couldn't help myself. and then i yelled at him, oh my god Tim! what the fuck is wrong with you!? and then i hung up."
Y: "i- wow. so he was just using me for my- my body?"
A: "yeah.. i'm sorry Y/n."
Y: "god he sounds like my rapist. saying he loved me for my body."
W: "i'm gonna go to bed.."
A: "alright goodnight." she kissed him and he walks away
Y: "i- i just don't get it.. i really thought he loved me."
A: "and i know you loved him so much. i'm really sorry."
Y: "don't be sorry. it's not your fault.."
A: "earlier.. you said you had urges, did you?"
Y: "no Angela. i didn't. i called you." you smile
A: "i'm glad. i'm glad i stopped you from harming yourself."
Y: "me too. anyways im gonna go to bed now. i'm getting tired."
A: "alright. i'll see you in the morning."
Y: "night."
A: "night." she smiles
you go to the couch where there's a blanket and pillow set up for you. you smile at the though of someone caring for you. you eventually fall asleep.
in the morning you wake up before Angela and Wesley and make coffee and breakfast.
you make pancakes and bacon for everyone.
W: "good morning, did you make breakfast?"
Y: "i sure did." you smile
W: "thanks!" he smiles
A: "what smells so good?"
W: "our breakfast"
A: "ooo what did you make?"
W: "actually Y/n made us pancakes and bacon."
A: "damn good breakfast right there. thanks!" she smiles
Y: "no problem." you smile
you all eat when your phone starts ringing, it's Tim.
Y: "uh i'll be right back.."
A: "alright."

*on the phone with Tim*
T- Y/n?
Y- what.
T- i- i need help
Y- what happened?
T- i- i went too deep
Y- shit. um i'm on my way.

*you hangup*

Y: "i'll be back.. Ang could i use your car?"
A: "yeah of course. what's going on?"
Y: "nothing.."
A: "alright."

you leave and drive to Tim's house. when you get there you use the key that's under his welcome mat and walk in. you look around downstairs and don't find him, you go upstairs and see him sitting on the bathroom floor with a bunch  of blood on the floor and lots of cuts on his arms
Y: "shit what happened Tim?"
T: "i don't know.."
Y: "let me clean you up."
you clean him up and wash his cuts carefully and then out bandages on his wrists.
Y: "what's going on with you?"
T: "i don't know."
Y: "am i okay to leave you here alone? i don't want you to hurt yourself again Tim."
T: "i'll be okay. thank you for coming."
Y: "of course. are you sure you'll be okay?"
T: "yeah i'll be fine."
Y: "promise?"
T: "yeah." he smiles
Y: "alright." you hug him
Y: "i should probably go. i took Angela's car." you laugh
T: "does she know..?"
Y: "no Tim. she doesn't."
T: "okay thank you."
Y: "and i might have to tell her.. for your safety Tim."
T: "i understand but i don't want people to know."
Y: "and i get that, but i got worse because i told nobody."
T: "right."
Y: "alright I'll see you at work tomorrow."
T: "yep. bye."

you walk out of his house and get in Angela's car and start crying. eventually you drive back to Angela's house, still crying.
A: "what happened?"
Y: "can i talk to you?"
A: "yeah of course. come here." she walks outside
A: "what's going on?"
Y: "it- it's Tim."
A: "what did he do this time. i'll slap him."
Y: "he did something.. to himself.."
A: "shit." she mumbles
Y: "he- he cut himself. he called me because he knew i've had a past with it and told me he went too deep and that it wouldn't stop bleeding so i went over and cleaned him up. i asked him if he would be okay if i left him there alone and he said i'll be fine. but Ang idk if he'll be fine. i'm scared he'll do it again.." you start crying
A: "hey, look at me. Tim's a strong man. he may not be a good man but he's strong."
Y: "okay."
A: "come on let's go inside and watch a movie."
Y: "okay." you smile

you go inside and sit on the couch with Angela and Wesley. Angela picks a horror movie and puts it on. a few minutes later you fall asleep in Angela's lap.

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