Angel's Drive Through Hell (Saved Series #1)

Chapter 52

"What happened triggered her emotions and hit her all at once so she got confused because those emotions felt foreign to her. And as you mentioned, she was acting ecstatic months before this. I assumed that she deprived herself to feel and grieve, and quickly jumped to how she wanted to feel. Do you know any reason behind that?" The doctor asked.

I was already awake but I refused to open my eyes because I didn't want them to know and I wanted to hear their conversation because it was about me, at sigurado akong hindi nila 'to sasabihin sa akin. Or kung sasabihin man nila, they'd delete some details.

"The fake psychologist her mom brought as a witness on the first trial. She said that Sandra had some disorder that makes her fake how she feels, and hurts herself to gain attention and sympathy." Loreen answered the doctor.

Hindi ko sila nakikita pero alam kong nagpipigil siya ng galit dahil rinig na rinig ko sa boses niya na gusto niyang sumigaw.

"Yeah, I remember that." Keisha whispered. She was sitting on my bed and gently holding my hand.

The doctor sighed. "That must be it. She acted ecstatic and carefree because she didn't want you to worry and give her sympathy because she thought all of her feelings and traumatic experiences were made up, and shouldn't be paid attention to at all."

The room fell into silence—making the sound from the machine that shows my vital signs deafening.

All of the things the doctor said were true because that was how I really felt and thought. Kaya hindi ko maalala halos lahat ng mga nangyari sa akin ay dahil akala ko gawa-gawa ko lang lahat ng mga 'yon.

"She needs to rest, be alone, feel her emotions, and grieve so she can move on because being sad is okay. She'll get through this." That was the last thing the doctor said before he left the room.

My friends stayed for a couple of minutes but I didn't open my eyes until they also left.

I blinked a lot of times to adjust my vision to the light hanggang sa luminaw ang paningin ko at ang una kong nakita ay itim na kisame. Nasa bahay parin ako ni Mika pero hindi sa kwarto ko because they painted the ceiling and walls there in color white when they learned that I didn't like the dark.

"S-Sandra" My soul jumped out of my body when I heard someone speak, and the voice was so familiar because I once considered it as my safe haven.

I didn't know I could ever hear his voice again but it felt relieving.

"Liam" I whispered.

I thought my friends were the only ones who were here pero andito rin pala siya. Hindi ko naramdaman ang presence niya kanina dahil siguro nagiging unfamiliar na ako roon.

His jaw firmed as he bit his upper lip and I saw a glint of tear on his eye.

"Don't do that again, please." He whispered, and the tear escaped his eye.

I looked away to not see it but it was too late so I just turned my eyes back to him. "Wag mo na ring gagawin 'yong ginawa mo." I said flatly.

He stared at me and he looked confused so I gulped to make him understand it.

"Saving me. I didn't like it."

I knew he was shot multiple times because I heard four gunshots before we collapsed on the ground and the blood he lost was not a joke so I thought I wouldn't be able to see him again. And I hate that the thought of it scared me.

"I can't promise that." He said, and shook his head.

I glared at him but then I nodded my head. "I can't promise not doing it again as well. So I understand."