Hallow's: Witch's Brew

Forty-Four

Shinedown- Dead Don't Die 

"You've been really quiet," Lily says as we walk through the now-empty halls of the lower-level corridors. "You slept in the apartment twice now. Are you and Noah fighting?" 

"No," I shake my head. I'm just being a little bitch. 

"Do you want to talk about it?" she takes a jab at my rib cage. I stop and spin around to look at her. "I know our time together is brief, but you've taught me a lot about myself. More than anyone. If I can say something or do something to help you. I'm prepared," 

"Thank you, but it's not something saying something cool will fix," I hand her the clipboard. 

"We haven't even walked through the whole thing. How did you fill these out already?" she asks examining each page.  

"I can feel everything down here because of Noah's powers," I explain. 

"Is that why you're moody? You see dead people," she giggles. 

"No, that's-" I take a deep breath. "It's just that everything is in order. It's all where it's supposed to be," 

"Oh," she nods. "Now that I understand," she links her arm through mine and pulls me along with her. "Okay, so obviously you know that Carter and I were married but we weren't together. Yes?" 

"Right," I humor her. 

"A lot of the time it was so hard not to love him. I mean Carter fucking Kennedy is a man," she laughs. "And he's fucking perfect, but so was Anthony. I mean Tony is and has been everything I've ever wanted. 

"When Anthony and I were together, everything was so perfect. I felt guilty. It felt like I didn't deserve how perfect it was. I know Tony knew that Carter and I were always more than just partners. Even if neither of us acted on it. Not while we were alive anyway," 

"Demon Carter and Lily finally fucked?" I laugh. 

"So have demon Lily and Kelly. It's weird. How we all just fit together. The four of us. And there are times when it doesn't feel real. There are times when I think that maybe I never left that room with padded walls after the first time I was kidnapped. 

"And maybe I never did. Maybe I'm still rotting in there. But it doesn't matter anymore. I've learned to stay here in the delusion of my perfect life. Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes it scares the shit out of me. Sometimes it feels better than any drug I've fried my brain with. I just hope I never wake up," 

Look at me. Relating to a fucking demon. I am truly out of my mind. 

"What about Anthony? What keeps him going?" I ask. 

"Anthony has always had his own demons. Crows live in a world without limitations. They see and hear all. Even when they don't want to and even in death, he's otherworldly. I'm happy to be one of those birds giving him what he needs even when he doesn't want it. 

"I've heard the boys talking about Noah. How they're not sure if they can trust him because of the way he treated you. Carter is like that. He's a king. They always think they know what is best for everyone even if they have to sacrifice themselves to prove it. It makes it hard for us to trust them and it'll be like that always. It's in their nature, Gastly. 

"Once we realize what they're doing, it's hard not to stop and see things through their eyes. There's no use in fighting it," she grins. "Just let him take you out for a ride. I've never ever regretted letting that bastard into my life. Not even after he taped me to the timber wolf statue for six hours. He sat under the tree across from me the whole time. Then the piece of shit sent me flowers and gift baskets every anniversary of that day until the day we died,"