WANT so BAD | minsung

thirty three

All of them arrived at the company and the three started their practice. Minho, Felix and Hyunjin was sitting on the floor while watching everyone repractice the songs they're about to perform next week on a big event. Minho was monitoring them and so as the two.

Hyunjin then stood up, trying to copy them and the choreographer was amazed at how fast he is to memorize everything in just a few minutes.

"Minho hyung I know you know the steps already. Come on try it with them. It's been a while don't you think?" Hyunjin asked and Minho stood up scratching the back of his head.

Everyone was in awe when Hyunjin and Minho took the rappers' spotlight from them and all of the back up dancers were clapping.

"Woah wait a minute! Don't take our job from us, Minho. Stay on your lane" Chan playfully said and he got flustered by it.

"Now I want to see Felix move" the choreographer suddenly stated and Felix was actually forced to dance with them. "Now that's more I like it! Don't you want to join and collab with them on stage? Do I have to pay you guys for that?"

All of the three are now looking at each other, thinking about what the choreographer said.

After a few hours of practicing, they decided to take a break. The back up dancers and the choreographer went out to plan the whole performance. Felix, Hyunjin and Minho agreed to the plan since they also wanted to at least experience performing on stage.

"We're heading out to buy a drink. You guys wanna come with?" Minho asked and immediately, Chan stood up.

"I'll go" Hyunjin was fast to answer too.

"I think I'll stay here" Changbin answered and Felix saw this as an opportunity to talk to him.

"I'll stay too. I wanna talk to Changbin hyung alone" Felix responded and all of them suddenly looked at him. "Now go. We didn't get to talk after what happened"

Hyunjin was actually worried what might happen. He's not confident about what Felix would feel between them. He is sure that he loves the younger, but he doesn't really know if Felix feels the same way.

After they left, Changbin was refusing to look at Felix, but he knows they needed to talk if they'll work together. They should really clear things out between them and they both wanted that for sure.

"Please let me talk first and listen to what I will say. I know I should be embarrassed about my actions. How unclear it is, how careless and stupid I am, and I want to apologize for it. I don't know if what happened to us is something meaningful for you, but I don't want to lie anymore. I was just greedy about what I am feeling and I am sorry if I didn't think of what you might feel after. I enjoyed it. I don't regret anything that happened but I want to come clean to you. I never felt anything from it. You are my idol. You are my favorite artist and I want us to stay that way. I know I don't get to decide about this, but it's what I want, at least. I respect you so much, hyung. I just don't know what got into me that I got desperate to be touched. I'm really sorry. I just want to work with you and be okay with you"

A few seconds of silence fell upon them before Changbin cleared his throat and ready to respond.

"If I want you out in our performance, will you not work with us?" Felix was taken aback, but if that's what Changbin wants then he'd rather say yes than to create a bigger fire.

"Yes I would do it for your sake" Felix answered but Changbin chuckled at him and it made him look his way—confused.

"I'm just kidding. It's not like I don't feel what you feel about this whole performance. This is work. This is publicity. I won't steal this spotlight away from you just because of what happened. It's true that you don't get to decide what our relationship will be after what happened so let me be honest too. I like you, Lix. 6 years ago I would've also said the same thing, but if you really can't reciprocate, I respect that. I also don't regret what happened to us so I just hope it remains that way. I'll be hurt if you really felt like you were forced doing that. Thank you, though. At least I get to experience to make love with someone whom I know I really liked. You should talk to Hyunjin, you know? And be honest. I can see your sad eyes everytime you look at him and I don't like it. I don't like the idea of me wanting to punch someone so hard"

"Wait I'm confused. You would've said the same thing 6 years ago?"

"Uh yes? Jisung didn't tell you? I saw you on vacation here when Minho hyung was still in university with me. I asked about you around the campus and they told me that you live in Australia and was just visiting. I know it's impossible to get to know you so I kinda gave up on that. I thought Jisung would talk about it"

"Well, he knows you're my idol. He may be wanting me to hear it from you"

"Well, that's it for us then? Friends?"

"Friends"