WANT so BAD | minsung

twenty eight

After Hyunjin left the room, he immediately walked to the elevator doors. Actually, he doesn't really want to be here. He doesn't want to see Chan nor even hang out with him. At first he was ecstatic to imagine that he can be friends with one of his favorite artists, but now that they've actually met, he got aloof and he doesn't understand why.

Is it because Chan gave him a motive already? Is it because Chan is one hella scary guy that would make him fluster in just a few words? Nothing. He couldn't think of any reason at all. He just wanted to hang out with Jisung, but Minho for sure won't let him.

"Hyunjin?" that was when his attention were caught. He looked up to see who just called him and he was surprised. "Bro what are you even doing here?"

"Seungmin? You're here" then they hugged and gave each other a pat. "I didn't know you'll be here too"

"I performed awhile ago and was the MC for the event. You have work here? We should find a place to talk to"

Seungmin then grabbed Hyunjin towards the nearest coffee shop and Hyunjin was thankful he bumped onto him or else he'll be outside wandering around town.

"Actually I came here with Felix and Minho hyung. It turns out, Jisung is their parents' godchild. We kinda clicked so fast and we visited them here because basically Jisung needs someone" Hyunjin explained and Seungmin was actually shocked.

"Jisung, you mean 3racha? The guy who produced my latest single? Wow what a small world" he responded and Hyunjin smiled at that. It really is a small world after all. "Now what are you doing here outside? I thought Jisung needs someone?"

"Minho hyung and him are kind of a thing and I'm sure he's taking care of him now. Felix? Maybe with Changbin? Doing something unholy?" Seungmin immediately picked up as to why Hyunjin is out.

"You're not used to it, aren't you?"
"Huh?"
"I said you're not used to Felix hooking up with someone"
"No I-
"Hyunjin it's obvious. Don't even mask it. I could see through you, you know?"
"Well, who am I to even stop him from doing what he wants?"
"Why don't you just straight up tell him? It's been so long"
"I respect him and just because I'm not seeing anyone, he should too. I just have to accept that we're not the same. He is capable, I am not"

Seungmin got what Hyunjin was pointing out. He's still scared to try and somehow he was concerned to hear that. Not in a bad way, but because it also happened to them before. Hyunjin could not reciprocate to Seungmin because of the same fear. He's not ready to commit.

But as much as he was relieved to see Hyunjin being okay after what happened to them, he was also concerned because it's been a few years since Seungmin confessed to him and now he's doing the same with Felix. He's not being real to his feelings and he is sure of that because back then, he was certain that Hyunjin was in love with him too. Though, he can't just let his feelings be invalidated and always understand Hyunjin and his fear. He can't keep hurting and waiting.

"You did this to me too, Hyunjin. Isn't it time for you to try, instead of running away with what you feel? I still accepted you as my friend even if I got hurt because I understood you, but Felix? Do you think he would be like me?" this time, Hyunjin was defeated. Seungmin is right.

"I can't tell him, Seungs. I don't know how to. Fear is getting me real good. There's so many what if's right now and I don't think I can even open this to anyone. If you hadn't read me just now, no one will know about this" Seungmin then held Hyunjin's hand and squeezed them for comfort.

"Hyunjin look at me and tell me" Hyunjin raised his head to look at his friend and he met Seungmin's reassuring eyes. "Do you like him?"

"I think so. What would be the reason of me getting jealous right now if not?"
"Then face it or you'll really lose him"
"I can't right now. I know he's with Changbin having fun"
"You have a room here? We can continue this upstairs. I have two beds. You can use the other one. Only if you want"
"I was about to check in but I guess, I'll just come with you. It's boring to be alone"