WANT so BAD | minsung

thirty two

Morning came and everyone on their hotel floor are busy gathering the members' things. They are all checking whether they left anything or whatever. Felix was just sitting on his bed waiting for Jisung to pick him up.

He's also waiting for Hyunjin, but he didn't receive a message. Not even finding him after what happened. Part of him was really disappointed that Hyunjin wasn't here, but most of him is blaming himself for his stupidity.

"Lix? You ready to head out? We're going back to the company" Jisung poked his head to check on Felix and he saw that he was zoning out. "Hey you okay there?"

"Where's Hyunjin?" he suddenly asked and Jisung was taken aback. He didn't know where he was? They didn't contact each other?

"He's already in the car. He was just waiting for us" Jisung replied and Felix looked up at him with still the sad eyes. Just like what he saw last night. He cracked a smile and that's when Jisung's heart melted. "You guys will be okay soon, Lix. Come on"

"I just wish we'll still be okay after this. He's never this distant to me, Ji. He never made me feel like I'm alone and I probably made him feel that way last night. God I'm even jealous over Seungmin right after having sex with Changbin. Who in their right mind would be like that? I feel so stupid"

"I know. That's why we need to do something for you to be okay again, right? You guys just have to communicate. Tell him what really happened" Jisung adviced and Felix nodded, standing up and making their way out.

The moment they got themselves inside their car, Jisung decided to ride with them since Minho brought his car last night. He sat on the passenger's and Felix was a little bit hesitant to sit beside Hyunjin.

Hyunjin was wearing his airpods and he was really focused on what he's watching. Felix was awkward to even move and Jisung noticed that. He was about to say something about it but Minho distracted him by putting his hand on his thigh.

He refrained himself from trying to talk and he just smiled at Minho and now the older focused on the road.

Felix wants to cry. He wants to apologize to Hyunjin and he wants to be heard, but he knows Hyunjin would need time. He also needs time to gather his thoughts before having an argument with him because that one is expected. He won't be having a proper talk with Hyunjin without breaking if he wants to do it now. So he stayed silent and played games through his phone.

While playing, he saw his notification bar popped up and Jisung's contact was shown. He checked the message and now he wants to cry more.

He then took a deep breath and sighed. He needs to be okay right now and ready himself to talk to Hyunjin so he tried to smile a little.

Felix then rummaged through his bag to find his airpods and thank god he charged it before leaving last night. He played a soft music before crossing his arms and closing his eyes. He felt tired all night and now it's easy for him to fall asleep, especially when he knows Hyunjin is just around.

On the other hand, Hyunjin saw that Felix's head was on the window and everytime the car moves, his head would hit the door. He scanned him and realized that he was not wearing his seatbelt so he grabbed the anchor and buckled it. Felix moved a little so Hyunjin had to hold his hand.

"It's okay. It's me" Hyunjin whispered and Jisung saw that, but acted like he didn't. He smiled at the sight and Minho was also fast to to check. "We don't want you hurting your head"

He then put his folded hoodie onto Felix's head, stopping it from hitting the door.

"I know you two are looking at me. He's really asleep now and won't hear us. You can speak up and scold me" Hyunjin stated and Minho cleared his throat.

"We're not scolding you for what you did. It made Felix realize everything on his own. You guys should actually sit up and talk instead of running away from it. You didn't do anything wrong, Hyunjin. What you did actually helped him. I knew you liked my brother even before. I'm just sad that you didn't make a move or whatever. Felix was just waiting for you" Jisung was surprised at what Minho said. Aren't they supposed to be telling that themselves? But Jisung remained silent.

"I have my reasons, hyung. I will talk to him after I gather my thoughts. I'm still disappointed and I won't invalidate what I felt. I need time to think" Hyunjin sternly replied and that's what Jisung realized. He still didn't know how they actually are when they talk seriously. He still didn't know the sides of them when they needed to be mature. He still needs to familiarize himself with them so all he has to do is to listen.

"I am not invalidating your feelings, but you know how he is everytime you fight. Every counted days you ignore him are engraved in his head. Every days you ignore him will cause him to destroy his mind with all of the negativity and if you want to clear things out without actually hurting him, assure him. Tell him you need time and you want it respected. Do not just ignore his presence because you know exactly how he behaves when he knows someone is mad at him.

I know everything is his fault but you are at fault too for not being honest with him. Because I know for a fact that my brother won't have sex with Changbin if you just stopped him. Even if you know you don't have the right to ask him whether or not he would have sex with someone else, he won't do it because you are his priority. I'm not taking his side but I know he won't have the chance to say this once you talked. He would overthink things the moment you'll tell him you want to have a cool off with him"

This. This is everything that Jisung likes about Minho. Everything he's saying is on point and you would not get mad for it because all of it were true. He's relieved because he is not the type of person to easily sit up and talk about his worries but Minho is one big of an assurance for him. He knows he won't have to get scared of being open to him because he always look at the bigger picture and analyze things so well.

"I know. That's why I need time, hyung. I don't want to talk to him and be stupid about what I feel. I want us to talk the moment I know how to handle my emotions well. I have to be stronger than him so that I can make him feel that everything about us will be okay. I hope you understand that. Please take care of him while I'm gone"

"Gone?" now it's Jisung's time to react. He can't just be silent about this. "You're leaving?"