A shipper would always know how to be a wise reader ^~^
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This is an OT8 fic and I do not want anything that would create an argument. Do not associate anyone that is not part of the group unless...
"Hey Ji how you doing lately?" Chan asked the younger while he's busy polishing the lyrics he wrote a month ago. He wasn't able to do it when he's home because of what happened and now he's forcing himself to do so.
"Just the usual. I was able to rest with the time they gave us and I feel ready to perform again" he replied and smiled warmly at his hyung. Even though part of him was lying, he's still honest all about the performance thing.
Performing is making him feel not that bad about himself. All he could focus on is how to deliver his messages properly and on how to give his fans the kind of performance he himself is also satisfied with.
"Yeah it sucks that our performance with your friends was cancelled" Changbin stated and Jisung was actually surprised that he forgot that they have a stage collab with them.
"Cancelled?" Jisung was confused making both Chan and Changbin look at each other.
"Yeah you forgotten? It was announced in our group chat. You didn't check? Felix and Hyunjin were disappointed and they said you were too that's why you don't want to look at it" Chan explained and Jisung suddenly realized what just happened.
"Oh yeah I'm sorry for zoning out. So stupid for not remembering" he then chuckled and grabbed his phone to message Hyunjin.
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Jisung then was kinda surprised because he didn't actually expected for Hyunjin to just straight up tell him about being unfair. He then relalized how selfish he was towards his members and even to himself that he's hiding it from the persons who need to be the first one to know.
"Ji? I don't want to interrupt your work, but Minho is waiting at the lobby. I just want to make sure if you want to be disturbed. Should I let him in?" it was the manager and Jisung who was actually not having the right headspace just shook his head no.
"Tell him we're busy and we can't be disturbed. I'll just message him" Jisung answered dryly and the two members were too confused to ask.
"Ji? I don't want to put my nose on this, but did you two fight? We're not really that busy. You can talk to him" Chan suggested, but Jisung was now busy typing on his phone and they figured to just wait for him to respond instead of bombarding him with questions.
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"I just don't want to talk to him yet. I don't know if we are fighting, but I feel so emotional that I don't want to face him" Jisung replied and both of them got silent even more. "You want to know what happened?"
They nodded and Jisung sighed—standing up to move towards the couch. "I want you all to listen and be understanding. It's not very serious, yet... but since I'm already here, might as well just tell you everything.
Beforehand, I want to deeply apologize and I am willing to face whatever consequences this might put me through but do not ever doubt my feelings towards you both. I love you with all my heart and what I did was selfish and I want you guys to know that I never faked anything when I'm with you. Everything that I felt having you around was all genuine"
Jisung then started to open up to his hyungs about his condition. How he managed to wake up from a depressive episode to having shutting everyone off around him and still do his work and perform. This has gone up to the point his body was uncooperative with his daily life and was hospitalized because of exhaustion. All of that made sense to them now and Changbin got actually teary for not allowing himself to understand the situation more because after all it's really that serious.
Chan on the other hand felt bad that even if being a leader who is on hands twenty-four seven didn't notice that one of his friends was actually suffering.
"I understand that you just didn't want to affect us or our job because of what you've gone through, but you could've told us and we can still make it a secret. We could've helped you, yu know? You suffered enough to even keep it all to yourself and now we're making you write a song after experiencing that? You're so cruel Ji" Changbin was sobbing and so is he. He didn't actually expect for them to react like this.
Even Chan who is trying to hold it in, didn't actually succeed. He was also crying and now he's hugging the younger and so as Changbin.
"I'm sorry for not noticing Ji. We should've been attentive towards one another. I'm really sorry" Chan added and rubbed Jisung's back.
"It's okay, hyung. I was being secretive and reserved that I also don't want anyone to know. I'm sorry for not opening up to you guys earlier"
