WANT so BAD | minsung

eighteen

"Hey Ji? You okay?" Felix asked when he noticed the poor boy zoning out while wiping the table off.

"Uh yeah I'm fine" Jisung replied and Felix felt bad because he also knows what it feels to be like that.

"Are you sure you're fine? We can finish early so that you can rest, you know?" Felix suggested but Jisung shakes his head—disagreeing.

"No it's fine. I want to hangout with you guys. I won't be able to go home for a few days or even update you guys since I'll be really busy. I can manage. All I have to do is to not think about what I felt awhile ago" he then chuckled. "I just hoped I didn't go home that early. Maybe I won't see or know that Minho hyung has someone already. It'll be less painful if he ever just kept it and didn't tell me since he's not obligated to"

"Aww Jisung don't say that. He could've told us even if he's not obligated to. I feel like Minnie noona came here to talk to him. They broke up without Minho hyung telling us what happened and he just suddenly became silent. Hyunjin and I assumed that they had a problem and we just brushed it off. Maybe they aren't really together yet, since he told us it's complicated"

"Even so, I don't think I have the right to be sad. He's just being nice and I'm rude for thinking that I could like him for just being genuine"

"Jisung, that's not being rude. You're appreciating his efforts and you just happen to like that about him. Liking someone is not a crime. He should be thankful that a guy like you is liking him. Look at you. You're gorgeous and just perfect. You are someone everyone could ever ask for"

"You're too nice, Felix"

"It's because I love you, Jisung. You are important to me now and we're best friends"

"I love you too, Lix. You are an angel"

Felix then gave him a hug before continuing to cleaning the area. They waited for a couple of minutes before Hyunjin and Minho arrived.

"I'm sorry we got caught in a traffic jam" Hyunjin explained and both Jisung and Felix's attention was diverted to them.

"It's okay. It gave us more time to clean up" Felix replied and Jisung was looking at Hyunjin's way, not even giving Minho a glance.

"Jisung? Can you help me wash these? I'll let them light the fire so that you wouldn't be as tired" Minho suddenly stated and Jisung panicked. He looked at Felix for help and the other understood his assignment.

"I'll do it with you, hyung. Jisung wants to talk to Hyunjin about something" Felix then automatically took the plastic bags from Hyunjin and walked inside.

Minho was actually weirded out that Felix and Hyunjin keeps on covering for Jisung. He was overthinking that he maybe did something wrong he doesn't know and now Jisung is being distant.

"You wanna talk to me?" Hyunjin asked and Jisung nodded, not knowing what to answer because it's a lie. "Okay let's talk while readying the charcoals"

Minho then followed Felix inside and now he's torn between asking Felix or just straight up asking Jisung if he did something wrong.

"What do you want to talk about?"
"Nothing"
"Oh so Felix was just saving you from him?"
"Basically"
"Minho hyung and I talked awhile ago. It's about Minnie noona"

Jisung was actually jealous that Felix and Hyunjin knows about her. It's not like he's blaming anyone for not knowing about stuff he didn't actually know. It's just the feeling of missing out and he envies them because they know each other so well.

"Can I be real, Hyunjin?" Jisung asked and Hyunjin was fast to look at him while nodding. "Let's not talk about it anymore, please? I mean, if it's not gonna come from him, I don't think I can listen without being sad. I'm really sorry"

"Oh don't be. You can always tell us whatever's making you uncomfortable" Hyunjin replied and smiled. "Just wanna say that they are not really together. That's it"

"I already figured it out. If I'm being honest, I just feel shitty with all of these. I mean, I'm not even here from the start and I already assumed that I'll know everything about your lives in just a short amount of time but I have to stop thinking that I know what you guys already know. It's hard getting to know each other and it's stupid to feel this way just because Minho hyung didn't tell me beforehand that he has someone. It just happened that I like him so I acted so immature. Gosh I'm even ignoring him—

"Ji? You're rambling. It's okay. You don't have to explain yourself. You don't have to tell us because we know what you're feeling right now that's why we're being extra careful around you. You like him and it's normal to feel sad if you knew about him having someone. Don't invalidate yourself because me and Felix really understands you"

"I should talk to Minho hyung later. I'm sorry Hyunie"

"It's fine. Just don't be so harsh on yourself. Let yourself feel what you want to feel, okay? Felix and I are always here for you. Come on, we're your best friends now"