Dial Drunk - Post Malone

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"You warm?" Austin whispers down to her as she looks up at him. She nods softly while she continues to lock her big green eyes on him. How did he get here? Is he dreaming? He has to be dreaming, it sure fucking feels like it. She watches him for a while and he remains still with his arms wrapped around her, too scared to move in case this really is a dream and she evaporates from his arms if he moves an inch. "I am scared," she signs then rests her hands on his chest. "What are you scared of?" he whispers.

"Tipping over the balance we have. Losing you."

He understands what she means. He is afraid of that too. They have formed a friendship like nothing he has had before and the thought of doing anything to ruin it scares the living shit out of him. But, he would be lying if he said he didn't want more...if he didn't want her. He wants her. He craves her.

"Don't be scared. I will take friendship if that's all I get. Just as long as I get to keep you in my life," he whispers. "You'll stay, even if I keep you just as a friend?" she signs. "Yes. I'll stay," he whispers. He watches her swallow thickly, she is nervous. He feels the same way. If they open this door, they can never close it again. There is no going back. Nothing will be the same again and while Austin should be a little more fearful of what he could ultimately lose, he can't stop the excitement that creeps up his spine. She sees him as more than just a friend, he thinks now she always did but was just too afraid to let it progress into something more out of fear of things not working out. But, if he had her, if she was his, he would do right by her. He would stop drinking, he would build the life she wants, and he would give her everything she wants and needs. Everything. He will be the man she deserves. He swears that with every fucking bone in his body. Please let this be real.

"Would you be prepared to go slow? If we do this I want to make every step count. I want to be careful. I want to build on what we have formed, not tear it down," she signs then places her shaking hands on his chest as she looks up at him with hopeful eyes. "Yes, baby," Austin breaths out, not sure he heard right. Did she just open that door he has been banging on? He watches as a soft smile creeps across her lips and then she tilts her chin up. Austin feels himself lean down as if he is pulled to her lips like metal to a magnet then presses their lips together.

Chills.

Fireworks.

All those cheezy as fuck things. He feels them all, it includes his knees going weak and forgetting to breath. Honestly he is still afraid to move incase she evaporates and this all turns out to be a dream. But, he can't let this opportunity go to waste so he parts his lips only just and runs his toung against her bottom lip. His heart is hammering so hard against his chest he can feel it in his ears. Her fingers dig into his chest then she parts her lips.

Choirs of angles.

Fuck.

He slips his toung into her mouth and melts around her as he kisses her. Her body is shaking in his arms and he tightens his arms around her, pulling her in closer as she goes up on her toes and gathers the front of his shirt in her now fisted hands, deepening the kiss. He is so lost in her he could not tell you which way is up. He kisses her till his jaw aches, only pulling back when he feels her push lightly on his chest.

They both need a moment to breath.

She has a grin the size of Texas as she bites her bottom lip and then hides her now blushing face in her chest. Austin wraps his arms around her tighter still, tucking her head under his chin and just taking a fucking moment to let his fucking brain catch up to reality. He can't stop his own grin so much so that his cheeks fucking hurt. He still can't believe after all this time that he was finally able to kiss her. It feels surreal so he hooks his finger under her chin and lifts her head, connecting their lips once again and making sure the first time actually happened. He kisses her till he feels her shoulders shake softly and then pulls back to look at her. She is laughing. She looks bright-eyed and happy. "You going to kiss me all night?" she signs. "If you will let me," he says, he still can't sign as his arms are locked around her.