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1. spring bloom

1. spring bloom - May 3, 2024

I can't hide away from it. It's finally here. I knew from the moment I opened my eyes. I smelled the pollen and immediately couldn't stop sneezing. The warm yet bright light that is blasting through my window. The overgrown lawn I cut last week with weeds already coming to say good morning. Check my phone for the late-night texts you sent while I knocked out. Rush into the bathroom in nothing but my briefs and bedhead. This spring weather had me a little delusional. I start imagining getting ready with you in the morning. Drinking my coffee and pouring you a cup before you head on out. Kissing you good luck on your to work. And tons more that I just fantasize about.

My heart is racing and excited. So excited that I cannot keep a straight face. Pulling up to your driveway, I was blown away when you opened the door. I swore that I saw flowers bloom and birds chirp in melodies. You looked so beautiful in your sundress. Your hair is shining and flowing. Your smile is sparkling and blinding. Is it too early to tell you that I love you? It just felt right like can we get married already? I have to take it a step at a time, but it's hard when it feels like I found my soulmate. My one true reason to smile. Still, seeing you felt unreal. Are you sure that you exist? This has to be another daydream I'm having. Taking you across the city, we drive with the windows down. You love the air blowing as your hair that you spent an hour on flies. Even as I'm sneezing and tearing up, I would give up anything to see you like that.

We do all the things you love. Bring you to your favorite picnic spot under the old oak. Lay flat under the shade and watch the branches and leaves play around the sunlight. Poke at each other and tease until laughing starts to hurt. Take candid pictures of you looking out onto the park or eating that chicken bake I got you from Costco. You hated it so much. You yell at me to delete it while whirling your chicken bake into the air like a weapon. Still, I'm way faster than you so getting away was easy. But, you also get my bad sides, especially when I'm about to make the ugliest face when I sneeze. I have to physically force my camera out of your hands and take my revenge. It was just back and forth yet felt so quick. What should have been like an hour turned into three. Then, time was up.

We drive back and I see that your smile is fading. Your face looks so somber so I grab your cheeks, rubbing them all around. You chase me out of the car and tackle me into your front lawn. I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt. You hit me like a truck in an anime. Looked away for one second and you came ramming at my side. You chuckle and brighten up like before. I smile back and just kiss you goodbye. I can't really do anything more than cheer you up. I can't afford to let you be sad and depressed. Otherwise, I lose my beloved spring. You make spring so beautiful. You make everything come alive and vibrant. Without you, it'd be no better than a desolate winter. You're my spring bloom. You're what make me come alive.