It's my secret (a Ross Lynch/R5 fanfic)

Chapter 48

NEVAEH'S POV

"He's not here? Where the fuck is he?" I half screamed freakin out.

"Well I though he was at your place" she replied calmly infuriating me even more.

"Oh my god!" I screeched running my fingers through my hair. I ran back home and picked up my phone, trying not to let anymore tears fall, only resulting in my vision blurring. I dialled Tyler number. It rang and rang, but eventually went to voicemail.

"Hey this is Tyler, I'm not available at the moment, so if you just leave a message after the beep I'll call you back ASAP. Bye! Beep!"

"Tyler, hopefully you have your phone on you, can I just say I'm so sorry, I didn't mean anything I said. I was just being.." I couldn't stop cry. I took a deep breath and spoke again." I am really stupid, I would probably be stuck in the North Pole because of the incident 4 years ago. Please come back, I love you, I really do. Please" I cried, putting the phone down.

"It's ok" Rydel said patting my back. I put my head in between my knees and cried. I heard everyone else either go to bed or go downstairs. There was only one person beside me, and it was Rydel, trying to calm me down. "Do you want to tell me what happened between you two?"

I nodded slowly looking up.

"He came looking for me on the beach earlier, and he got mad because I went somewhere with a guy without telling him, and then I got mad because he was being reductions, so I went back to Kian and kissed him, knowing it would make Tyler crazy, and when I got home, he came to apologise, but instead we started fighting again, and I though he had gone home but he isn't home, and his Mom isn't doing anything to find him." I cried telling her everything.

"Why was he mad at you for going with another guy?"

"He thinks that I don't make reasonable decisions. He didn't want me getting hurt" I sighed.

"You know, Ratliff once said that to me too" she said calmly. "And then he told me he had feelings for me. Do you think that it could be, even if it's quite unlikely, same with you two?" She asked.

"Maybe" I gasped as realisation struck. "If so, I broke Tyler's heart. I'm such a bad person! Oh My Gosh! I hate myself so fucking much! I hope he's ok! I am the worst person in the world"

RYDEL'S POV

I couldn't stand anyone saying something so bad about them selves. I remembered when Ell told me I needed to Be careful, that I would always end up hurt, I didn't understand that when he said it, but now understood exactly what he meant.

"Don't hate yourself, let's go look for him" I said getting putting my hands in my hips.

"Really?" She said looking up at me surprised.

"Sure" I smiled.

"Let's go" she said getting up. I grabbed my phone, handbag, keys, and some make up and 3 hair bands a new glitter phone case, and a few more accessories. I then went to the kitchen and snacked some crisps, drinks, and a few others things.

After that I got a water bottle, but my bag was too full. I carried my heavy bag to the shoe rack, and put on my black and pink converse with the flower design. By the time I was done, Nevaeh had half fallen asleep on the door step. I shook her shoulder And she raised an eyebrow with tired and weak smile on her face.

"What? You never know how long we could be gone!" I said. She sighed as we got up and left the house. "Where would he take you if you were mad?"

"He wouldn't go anywhere I knew of. Take me to a quite place that doesn't have many people" she said. I raised an eyebrow. "Please?" She said. I giggled and led the way to the woods. This was one of the most quietest places in Cali.