"Echoes of trauma."
Being built on trauma,
I carry invisible wounds,
That others say was never there
I cover scars with hostility,
And apathy to hide my emotionality
I had to turn my heart into pale white,
And listen to my brain who knows what's right.
I knew I once saw the world in colors,
Now everything's nothing but plain grey
I was once full of brightness and vibrancy,
Yet was taken away.
"Toughen up." They say,
And so I did.
Now that I'm devoid of emotion,
I've become soulless with no ambitions
The world was tiring and exhausting each day,
How every step I take for greatness
And I wondered how I would be,
If I had been built with much resilience
How better had I been,
If not only for my fragile sensitivity
If I had not been built on trauma,
Who could I be?
If my brightness and vibrancy haven't been crushed,
If my smiles and aspirations haven't faded,
Who could I be?
If I hadn't been prickled,
By the needles of issues and unconscious trauma
People had to hide from themselves.
Because, to be honest,
I missed that part of myself,
The innocence and love,
Mercilessly crushed into pieces
Yet I never once asked to feel this dead,
I had just been unlucky
Too unlucky to carry all this trauma within me.
YOU ARE READING
all those rage, and i'm still here?
Random𝓘 𝔀𝓻𝓲𝓽𝓮 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓵𝓸𝓸𝓭 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂 𝓮𝓶𝓸𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼. 🩸🖋️✍️ Collection of personal essays and poems. Disclaimer: Heavy themes (mostly existential and psychological). Read at your own risk.