Addicted To You

32 - Underwater

The first thing I did was call Lucy. I told her about the offer and asked her opinion.

"Ri. Come on. How much thinking do you really need to do? Yes, it will be awkward, but isn't it already? This is the opportunity of a lifetime!"

"But I will have to leave my family. It has been hard being away from them this long already."

"Kihyun said you can travel home whenever you want, right?"

"Yes, he did."

"And the pay they are offering is enough that you would be able to afford to fly all of them here for a visit, right?"

"Yes, it is."

"And you are learning Korean. What better way is there than to live in the middle of it?"

"Don't you have any cons? Any words of warning?"

"Yes. I have one. Don't be an idiot."

"Thanks. That was insightful," I rolled my eyes at my best friend. When we hung up I was still not convinced it was the right move. It was not a decision to make lightly.

More and more things came to mind that just added to the pot. There was my house. I had just paid it off. Did I sell it? Rent it out? And what about my car? What about everything? I was so confused. But through it all, I still wanted to say yes. It was a link to my mother and I just wasn't sure I was doing the right thing for the right reasons.

When it was morning in Atlanta I called Uncle Larry and told him about the offer. I explained to him my hesitation. I even told him about Minhyuk and my worries about that situation. I had always been close with my uncle and I wasn't afraid to tell him about our short romance. He basically said what Lucy had.

Was I the only one trying to be cautious about this? It seemed so. I was the only one holding me back. Was I only hesitant because of Minhyuk? Was I letting my fear that I could not continue to be around him influence my decision? Probably. On the other side of that was the chance that being there would keep me on his mind and maybe the winds would shift back in the other direction. That was a possibility, although one I wasn't too convinced would happen.

I opened the folder and read the offer letter and contract for the 15th time. It was very generous. It was written very much in my favor. Aside from the incredibly high salary, housing, transportation, medical and veterinary care, and a meal allowance were all included as perks. It was a dream offer.

Jinki came to sit beside me. She put her paw on the contract and meowed, right by the signature line. Coincidence? You decide.

"Really? You too?" I scratched her head as she meowed her answer. It was unanimous. I tried to look at it as if Minhyuk were not a factor. What would my decision be then? It would be yes. I sighed, knowing I had lost this battle.

I called Kihyun and told him I would accept their offer. I still needed to go home as planned when awards season was over. I had to take care of lots of things before I could move to Korea. The new job would have to start after all of that.

I spent the day second-guessing my decision. I was still very confused. I hadn't talked to Minhyuk about it to see if he was okay with me joining them. They had discussed it as a group and made the decision. It would stand to reason that if he objected, he would not have been sitting there smiling while they presented the offer.

I could be reading too much into that. Maybe he was outvoted and had to deal with it. Yes, it would have influenced my decision if he had given any indication that he would be uncomfortable. Maybe that is why I didn't talk to him first. This way I could just assume he was part of the discussion to bring me on and leave it at that. I would talk to him later. It was done now.