Addicted To You

44 -Stardust

The trial was over. She was locked up in a psychiatric hospital. I should have been able to relax. Instead, my nightmares were as strong as ever. Minhyuk held me when I would wake up from one and it calmed me enough that I could go back to sleep. That was the only improvement. I was able to go back to sleep. I was still paranoid and jumped at everything.

I was out of the cast and the swelling and bruising had finally gone. There was just a little discoloration from the bruising which was easy to hide with a little color-correcting concealer. My stitches were out and PT was over. Physically, I felt like an almost normal person for the first time in weeks. I still had random pains in my abdomen and face, but I was able to manage.

The guys had been busy in the studio and the practice room. They were getting ready for their comeback now that all the drama was behind us. Theirs would come after K-OS had finished their tour. My guys didn't want to steal their thunder.

Jinki was calm and settled again. Life seemed mostly normal again and I was happy. I was planning to move back into my apartment after the cast came off, but Minhyuk convinced me to stay with him. He didn't want me to sleep alone because of my nightmares. We were basically living together, and I loved it. I had been deprived of him for too long.

Min's parents had come into town for the trial to support their son. They were very worried about him. They seemed to like me okay, but that could have been because of how awful I had looked while they were here and what they heard at the trial. I think they had a little sympathy for my situation.

They got along well with my uncle, even though they had to have a translator. Changkyun helped out quite a bit. They stayed in a hotel, which I felt a little guilty about, but there wasn't room for all of us.

Min took them out to dinner one night when the trial was over, just the three of them, and they seemed different around me after that. More engaging or something. More accepting? Something like that. He wouldn't tell me what they talked about, but I assumed I was at least one topic of conversation.

I wasn't cleared yet for strenuous physical activity, so it was difficult to be together at times. We both wanted to pick up where we had left off in LA, but we had to go slow.

In a way, it was a blessing. It gave us more time to focus on each other. We spent hours at night talking and sharing stories about our childhoods. During the day he was working and getting ready for the comeback. They still had a company to run on top of their music.

At rare times when he was free, we went for walks. When he wasn't free I went with Uncle Larry. He was my babysitter when Min was working.

I told my uncle that I wanted him to start on his sightseeing tour once I was able to do things for myself more easily. He said he knew I was in good hands with my guys, but he wanted to hang around a little longer. He was curious about the comeback.

The group's schedule was packed for the next few weeks. What we see as fans is nothing compared to behind-the-scenes. There is little time to sleep and even less time to relax.

Min and I didn't see much of each other except late at night when he finally got home. We spend a lot of nights just holding each other. Well, the three or four hours he gets to sleep. It doesn't really count as a night.

I was finally released from his care, but Dr. Kwon told me to take it easy and give my body time to heal fully. He suggested some exercises in addition to what the physical therapist had given me. He was happy that I had been walking and was very happy with my progress. He felt I needed a little more time before I was ready to get back to my normal day-to-day activities, no heavy lifting, etc., but I could go back to work full-time and resume light activity.