Zac allowed Fatima to decompress further before starting! He made sure she was okay and then he began!
Gladys never touched me sexually, but she did have some friends who did! My mom used to have these parties they called her house the juke joint! She would invite any and everybody and half the time she didn't know who the people were! She just wanted someone to get high with and the people who were there became a convenience for her! She doesn't know unless she pretended to be clueless! Most times she was high out of her mind and didn't pay much attention to anything I did!
Flashback
Gladys, "Zac go in the room, I'm about to have company and I don't need you to be out here being a lil bitch all night!"
I walked into the room and took my rocks out of my pocket! I aligned them on a piece of paper and pretended to be building a rocket! Shortly after I needed to pee so I walked to the bathroom! My mom's friend Janet was in there! I was about to walk out when she grabbed me!
Janet, "You one handsome lil nigga! Looking just like your fine ass daddy! You know he was supposed to be mine but of course your mom's greedy ass refused to share!"
Janet was using the bathroom, and I didn't think I should be in there because I never went in the bathroom with my mom only Jeremiah!
Janet, "Oh you like what you see? Wanna touch it?"
I shook my head no and attempted to wiggle out of her grasp, but she refused to let me go!
"No, No, No!"
Jamet, "Oh don't be scared baby! You shouldn't make up too much noise because your mom could hear and then she will come in here and beat you! You don't want that now do you?"
I shook my head no because a part of me knew she was right! My mom found every opportunity to whoop my ass daily and she had just told me to go into the room so I wouldn't be whining! I just knew if she heard me amidst her party, she would definitely whoop my ass, so I kept quiet!
Janet, "I see you're a good little boy, yes you are!"
I didn't want to pee anymore especially in front of her! She was giving me weird vibes and I needed to get out of there, but it was impossible without alerting my mom!
Janice watched me attentively, "Go ahead and pee Handsome!"
I didn't want to go, no matter how much she protested I wouldn't move! Then she said, "Go pee before I tell your mom you walked in on me, and we both know exactly what's going to happen afterwards!"
I didn't want to be beat that night! I had done a great job of not pissing my mom off and staying out of her way so the fact that Janet could mess all of that up with one lie bothered me! I walked over to the toilet and pulled my boxers down so I could pee! Janice never took her eyes off of me! It was like she was looking right into my soul, and I hated the look of lust displayed on her face! I finished and went to go pull my boxers back down and she grabbed me!
Janet, "You're quite big for your size!" Then she started touching me and wouldn't stop! I was uncomfortable and I just wanted to go back to the room!
She wouldn't stop touching me! Even when there was a knock at the door, she continued until she was satisfied and then I ran into the room and closed the door behind me! I slept under the bed for a while after that! I wasn't fully aware of what happened, but I knew for a fact that it was wrong, and she should've known better! After that, I'm assuming she told some of her friends because two more ladies who were crack heads did the same thing to me and one even licked on me! I felt nasty, I knew telling my mom could either help or hurt me! Something in me told me that I would end up in a lot of trouble, so I kept it to myself! I started hiding in different places so that when they came looking for me it would be hard for them to find me! It all stopped when one of the other ladies offered to turn her old house on the corner into the juke joint and my mom would just leave me home alone and go there!
Fatima, "Tell me exactly how you felt when those instances occurred?'
Zac, "I felt like no one cared enough to come save me or at least check on me! I also felt like those ladies had been planning on ways to harm me for a while! It felt very premeditated!"
Fatima, "So do you think that if you wouldn't have gone into the bathroom that those things still would've happened?
Zac, "Yes, because they continued to try even after almost getting caught!"
Fatima, "Did you ever attempt to harm yourself because of this?"
Zac, "No! I was only 6! I didn't know anything about that! All I knew was that I felt alone and scared!"
Fatima, "Close your eyes and take a big deep breath and then exhale!"
Zac did as told and looked at Fatima with widened eyes!"
Fatima, "So you felt that?"
Zac, "Yes what was it?"
Fatima, "That was the chains of bondage breaking from this situation!" She handed Zac his certificate!
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Fatima hugged Zac, "They didn't win! You have all the power!"
