From Product to Professional |COMPLETED|

Making it to Phase IV

Fatima looked at the women, "The next time y'all want to fuck in my house, please be quiet!"

Zac started laughing, "Man y'all are wild! You do realize we have a baby in here while y'all were hooping and hollering!"

Lori, "Sounds like you and Fatima need to make it to 10th base!"

Tony, "Exactly baby is that jealousy we smell!"

Jana, "Gotta be cause I just had the ride of my life!"

Meech, "Umm you sure do know how to drive a stick shift!"

Angela, "Honey I had a snake to tame! I'm sorry! I hope we didn't wake him up!"

Jake, "You're good with snakes huh?" *looking at Angela*

Fatima, "No you didn't wake him!" *laughing*

Zac, "Baby are you ready to go work through some more trauma?"

Fatima, "Yes I am honey lead the way!"

Zac grabbed Fatima's hand and they entered her office, "Phase III and IV can be together because they're interchangeable! I'm ready when you are!"

Fatima, "Well before Ian I was a happy, social worker who enjoyed all aspects of life! I loved my job, hanging out and me! There was nothing about myself that was connected to hatred! I stayed in the gym and I always spoke life into myself! I used to always tell myself YOU'RE UNSTOPPABLE! Then I met him and things changed! There were places on me that I started to hate! I looked in the mirror and the sight of myself made me sick to the stomach! I placed all his insecurities into myself! I know I shouldn't have but it was hard when I heard the same narcissistic comments daily for 3 years!"

Zac, "Tell me one thing you hated about yourself that you love now!"

Fatima, "It would have to be my appearance! I used to be able to put on anything with confidence but then Ian locked me in the house and I stopped dressing up! I stopped being me and that's really when the insecurities about my body started! I would see the wounds and get angry! I wore baggy over sized clothes and a messy bun daily! I lost that part of Fatima Channing Wilson but I'm slowly getting her back!"

Zac, "Tell me something that you still hate about your body?"

Fatima, "The scars that I haven't gotten covered! Everytime I look at them, they just remind me of everything I went through! How hard I was on myself because I chose to endure all that stuff! It's also painful knowing that they weren't there 3 years ago and now I can't seem to shake having them now!"

Zac, "Do you realize that what happened to you wasn't your fault?"

Fatima, "Sometimes I feel like it was and then other times idk! I know no matter how hard I tried I wasn't going to be able to run away from Ian! Even if I left he probably would've found me and drug me right back to that hole! It just shocks me sometimes that I used to have so much power but then I allowed him to strip that away from me!"

Zac, "T if I asked you could you look past the insecurities Ian placed in you and move forward, Do you think you'll be able to?"

Fatima, "Idk I can try though!"

Zac walked into Fatima's room and grabbed her mirror he stepped back into the office and placed it in front of her, "Tell me what you see?"

Fatima, "I see a beautiful woman with a calm spirit!"

Zac, "Good!" He walked up to her and grabbed her hand, "Can I take your gown off?"

Fatima, "Yes"!

Zac pulled Fatima's gown off and kissed her forehead, then he turned her around, "Now tell me what you see?"

Fatima, "I see the scars that made me doubt myself but I realize they're my battle wounds and all soldiers have them!"

Zac looked at Fatima, "Now that statement right there represents true healing!" He helped her back into her dress and handed her the certificate!

Fatima sat down and looked at Zac, "I'm ready when you are!"

Zac, "My mom was happy and even lovable when my dad was around and so was I! She took us to the park, made sure we ate and bathed! Bought us toys and sweets! She catered to us and made sure we had everything we wanted and needed! I was happy and content! I loved being with her and around her! She used to pray with me and read me books! She also loved singing so normally she sung us to sleep!"

Fatima, "At any point did you suppress the positive things your mom did for you?"

Zac, "When my abuse started I did! I felt like none of that mattered because she placed me in a vulnerable position to be mistreated by her, my brother, and her friends!"

Fatima, "How do the happy moments make you feel now?"

Zac, "I feel like I forgot how good she used to be! I didn't realize that when my Dad left or however the situation went she was hurting and she had no one to inflict pain on but me because I was a product of him!"

Fatima, "How do you feel about being mistreated because of decisions made by your parents?"

Zac, "I feel like it's unfair to me! I was never a bad or troubled kid until I was traumatized! I was always bubbly and happy but both of them took that away from me!"

Fatima, "Do you now realize that your experience wasn't your fault?"

Zac, "Yes I do! My mom had her own battles after splitting from my dad! I just so happened to still be around during them!"

Fatima, "Can you forgive yourself for the blame you placed on you?"

Zac, "Yes because I know it wasn't my fault! I was innocent in the whole situation!"

Fatima hugged Zac and handed him the certificate!