the last straw

worse

Angie's POV

Avery's night terrors are getting worse. she's been really clingy to Mike lately. She can't sleep without him being the same room, and she never wants to leave him.

Sierra was backsliding but she is doing a lot better now. she stopped restricting her food and told us about her urges to burn herself. We talked her through it. i'm proud of her for telling us.

Ty and Trinity are, and have been, doing good. Ty has been coming home more often to watch Trinity and Avery, even thought we tell him he doesn't have to. He said he's missed so much of their lives and wants to be with them.

Sierra POV

Everyone is focusing on Avery a lot. I hate how much Leslie has been in her head.

Fortunately, everyone is leaving me alone so I don't have to keep using energy to talk to everyone. im so exhausted. staying healthy is so tiring. im so tired of being strong.

i want to cut. i want to burn. i want to feel some pain. even taking pills and overdosing is appealing. i want pain so much.

i decided these aren't healthy thoughts so i should tell someone.

i decided to talk to George about this.

he was in the kitchen making lunch for everyone.

"Hi George!"

"Why, hello Ms. Sierra! How are you?"

"i'm good. do you need any help making lunch?"

"well, another hand wouldn't hurt." he said, smiling.

i helped him make lunch for everyone. we made chicken alfredo and garlic bread everyone loved it.

eating was hard for me. there's a knot in my stomach and i don't know how to get rid of it because i don't know what caused it.

after lunch, i went back to my room. i didn't tell George. we were having so much fun cooking that it slipped my mind.

all of a sudden, i feel the need to throw up.

next thing i know, i was leaning over the toilet, vomiting. it was so  painful. i started throwing up stomach acid and blood.

when i was done, i was so exhausted. i sat down. everything hurts suddenly. i start shaking and crying.

Angie POV

Trinity and Avery were playing in the living room with Kirby after lunch. they are all adorable together.

Mike and George were outside talking.

Sierra.

She isn't supposed to be alone after eating, or in general.

I go up to check on her but she doesn't answer the door.

i'm panicking.

"sierra! open the door." i say.

after a few seconds, she unlocks the door and opens it. she looks sick.