" one of the other versions"
There are days when the world have shown me undesirable truths in this life. When I say undesirable, it means that it should not be enough to just let them pass.
Sometimes, it remained in my heart. Letting it change me beyond knowing.
And if it is true to do not let the harshness of this world change of what you are. To never let the negativity steal the softness in your heart.
I'm afraid..even if I want to retain myself as the person I believe I am. Kind, soft and gentle. But then..as I made things I know should not be done, I realize that those changes I refuse to overcome the person I become has literally produce versions of me that I know came from those undesirable truths in this life.
Napatingin ako sa katabi.
Napaawang ang labi ko.
It happen again.
But this time...with Rome.
Napahilamos ako ng di oras sa mukha. Not wanting to see the effect of my stupidness last night.
How come I escape?
Paano ako nakalagan?
Did Rome unlock the handcuffs?
Bumangon ako at hinawi ang kumot sa'king hubad na katawan.
Mabilis kong kinuha ang mga damit na nasa sahig.
But as I attempted to do it, I notice something on the bedside table.
Cigarettes.
Napahinga ako ng malalim. Being so frustrated from not remembering anything.
Bakit naninigarilyo na naman ako?
I can still feel it in my nostrils. Remnants of the nicotine in my breath.
Napahawi ako sa buhok saka mabilis na pumasok ng banyo.
Nagbabad muna ako sa bathtub. Trying to cool down my head.
How long I am not awake this time?
Why I really not feel that I am in my self lately?
Ano ba talaga yung mga nangyayari sa'kin?
For once I doze into sleep for an hour before I wake up. I feel relieve for I still found myself here in the tub.
Not doing anything wrong..to Rome.
Nang makapagshower ay lumabas na ako ng banyo.
Wala na si Rome sa kama. Siguro nasa sasakyan na siya.
Agad akong sumunod sa kanya.
I found her sleeping on her seat. Hindi ako makatingin sa kanya. I just sit on my seat and never dare to look at her.
" Sino ka ngayon?" Taka akong napatingin sa kanya. Even if I tried so hard not to look at her.
" Who are you now? Huh? Are you James? Lancelot? O..si Lance?"
Napaawang ang labi ko.
She mentioned two other names that I believe my other versions' chosen name.
Ni hindi man lang sila pumili ng ibang pangalan. They just chose my two names.
Napahinga siya ng malalim saka dumilat. Tumingin siya sa'kin ng maigi.
Much confuse than my look now.
" Who the fuck are you now, huh?"
Napakurap ako saka umiwas sa kanya ng tingin.
Wala pa ang mga tauhan ng papa. Nagpabili ako sa kanila ng makakain. Nagugutom kasi ako pero wala na akong oras para mag-breakfast sa hotel. I have a class this 11 AM.
BINABASA MO ANG
LAST BROKEN VOW (Broken Vow Trilogy:3)
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