LAST BROKEN VOW (Broken Vow Trilogy:3)

21: Rome Castellano

" help me escape you "

Ngayon.. paano na 'to?

Talaga bang magtitiwala ako sa mga plano ng lalaking yun?

Napalingon ako kay Lance na mahimbing na natutulog sa'king tabi.

He's supposed to be sleeping above on this deck. Pero biglang nagising si Lancelot sa kanya. And perhaps, despite the chaos these past days, I feel comforted with the idea that he's finally awake and I'm hoping this time he would stay. I'd rather run away with him, spend the rest of my life being with him, than doing it with his other versions.

May nangyari sa'min.

But I don't know, he's kinda different from the previous times we seen each other. Last time I can still feel of how he was so hopeful and very sure of his feelings towards me.

But a while ago he was different. He seem distant and lost.

He seem like he's saying goodbye to me the way he talk about of an unknown future with now that I'm on a run from his father.

He seem not satisfied with how things went out right now. Parang hindi niya gusto yung pagtakas ko. I mean namin...ni Lance.

A while ago was good. .because I get to see him once again, but at the same time sad because he seem not happy with the idea that we're escaping.

Napahinga ako ng malalim at tulala lamang nakatingin sa kawalan.

The night is still long and for the next few hours my life is still uncertain.

I don't know kung si Lancelot pa'rin ba yung magigising kinabukasan. My heart aches with the fact that the person I want to be right now won't be with me no matter how I want him to be with me at this moment.

This is probably the most insane idea I did in my entire life. Running away with a man who in a minute would become a threat to my life or would actually save me from the reality.

I don't know anymore.

Pinahid ko ang mga luha.

I am crying again. Silent sobs that if I will not stop might turn into wailing. 

" Stop crying Rome. "

Napalingon ako sa kanya. Hindi gaanong klaro ang mukha niya dahil sa dilim ng kwarto. The room is moving a little maybe from the waves. All I can hear now is our long breaths.

" Lancelot.. "

I am hoping that he came back. I want him to come back .. for me.

I need him. 

" So that bastard was here." Mas nalugmok ang puso ko nang marealize na ang masamang Lance na itong kasama ko.

Pinahid ko ang ilang mga luha sa'king mukha at binalik muli ang mga tingin sa kawalan.

" What now Lance .. ngayong nakalayo na tayo sa papa mo. Ano na ang mangyayari sa'tin?"

I feel him move beside me.

He hug me from behind and I was shock in a bit when I feel his hand on my bare boobs. Oo nga pala.. I'm still not in my clothes.

Tila natigilan naman siya.

" Shit .. " Mahina niyang mura.

I feel him squeeze my one boob. I can also feel his hot breath on my nape.

"Do you love him.. Rome?"

I never answer his question even though I know what's he's talking about.

" Tell me.. do you love that other version of me?"