LAST BROKEN VOW (Broken Vow Trilogy:3)

4: Lance Santibañez

" psycho "

Napabuga ako ng usok saka nilagay na sa ashtray ang pangalawang sigarilyong hinithit ngayong madaling araw.

The sun is still not up. I can see it here from this hotel's window that it's still dark outside.

Napatingin ako sa orasan ng kwartong ito. It's four in the morning.

Wala pa akong tulog mula kagabi.

Napatingin ako kay Rome na nakadapang natutulog sa kama. Naked and with only a portion of the sheets on her lower body.

Her long hair is drastically scattered on the pillow. Dump wet from all the labor we did through the whole night. She's glowing from all the sweats, and even dead tired from it.

Napangiti ako ng mapakla. 

So she's not my father's mistress. 

That Gio also never took the chance on her. 

Pano mangyayari yun kung bakla naman ang gago? Tsk.

I'm not proud with how I did it, but at least I'm the one who first do that to her. Not my father..not Gio and not even those goddamn men in this world!

Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba ako o hindi sa nagawa sa kanya.

I can still see some of the bloods in the sheets. 

Napatingin ako sa kanya ng maigi.

I'm intrigued again.

So what is her damn reason why she got into this job?

She's a f*cking virgin.

Kung hindi naging agresibo ang papa sa pagpapatino sa'kin, baka ibang lalaki na pala ang nakagawa nito sa kanya.

Thinking that now gives anonymous rage in my heart.

I did not want this for us to happen. I did not intend to go this far.

But I want this thing to still go on between us. I want to send a message to my father that Rome is doing great in her job.

I just need to help her out. Not thinking that this will be quite hurtful for her..at first.

Napahinga ako ng malalim. Marahil abot dulo na yung puot niya sa'kin ngayon dahil sa nagawa ko.

Naipilig ko ang ulo mula sa sakit. Maybe my body is telling me now to rest.

It has been a long night.

I did not plan to doze into sleep on the single couch, but I just woke up feeling all the hot light on my face.

Nang magising ako, nakita kong wala na si Rome sa kama.

Mabilis akong napatuwid ng upo at disoriented na napatingin sa buong kwarto.

She's not here..anymore.

Napakunot ang noo ko sabay hawak sa'king ulo.

Nang sa tingin ko kaya ko ng tumayo, mabilis akong pumunta ng banyo.

I showered and made myself ready to check out.

I'm approaching now the parking lot. I see our black SUV there.

Napatingin ako sa'king relo. Mag-aalas nuebe na pala ng umaga.

I'm quite hungry.

Pwede pa naman ako magbreakfast muna and call the driver to just go. Pero I want to see her.

Gusto kong makita kung andiyan pa ba siya sa sasakyan.

And to confirm that she's still in the car, I see her sitting at the back of the driver seat.